Story of J

Chapter 8

I awoke to the sound of my alarm. I awoke. I slept. I actually had a good sleep. No demons, nothing going to shreds, just sleep. Feeling very well rested, I get out of bed and get ready for another awful day of school.

I arrive at school, not prepared to learn anything or for the day to come. To my surprise M doesn't stop by my locker to tell me how her night was and what she did with the guy she's with. I walked to class and got settled into my seat with plenty of time to spare, so I decided to pull out my phone. I notice I have a text from someone.

E - Good morning! I'm glad u had a great time on our date last night. And I hope u slept well.

E - I was wondering is u wanted to each lunch together and just talk today?

Me - Yeah, that'd be great. I'll meet u in the commons?

E - Sounds like a plan.

With that, the bell rang and class began with the teacher continuing to lecture us about something that we will never use outside of high school. Hours felt like days as school rolled by and lunch finally arrived.

I didn't even bother going over to the girls and their boyfriends because I will be leaving soon anyways and they won't even realize that I'm not there. I make my way to the commons and wait patiently for E to arrive.

He soon arrives and he says that we can go walk outside and talk since it's nice out. I agreed and we made our way towards an exit.

Once we finally made it to a nice place to start walking and talking we immediately started making conversation.

“I know that I just met you yesterday. And that we don't exactly know each other that well, but I just wanted to ask if you were okay. Like genuinely okay”, E hesitantly asked me as we continued to walk.

I frowned, then looked up at him, wondering what brought this question up. “Yeah, I feel great”, I said while wearing a fake smile.

He frowned at me, took my right arm into his hands and gently pulled the sleeve up. As I realized what he was doing, I was to late. All of my scars are visible.

Tears are rolling down my cheeks as I look up at him through blurry vision.

“I saw a glimpse of them yesterday when you hugged me. Your sleeve lifted up a tad and I didnt know if I was seeing what I thought I was. And right now just proved my eyes correct”, he sadly stated as he carefully pulled the sleeve back down and let my arm free from his grasp.

I can't look at him, at least not in the eyes. I can't have those green eyes staring into mine with pity and sadness.

I gained a silver of courage and lifted my head slightly up toward him as to let him know I was listening.

“How long? Why are you doing this? Does anyone else know?”, question after question is fired at me, as I slowly lift my head even more and look him straight in be eyes.

Right then and there I collapse. E catches me before I can hit the ground. I am sobbing uncontrollably, clinging onto E for dear life. He just holds me, softly whispering sweet nothings into my ear as I sob. E comforts me as I just sob and sob into him.

No one has ever noticed and he has and I've only known him for less than a day.

I gain enough control over myself to pull together and begin to settle down, still being held by E.

I get pull away, just enough to be able to look E in the eyes. I slowly breathe in and out. “A little over 9 months. Not the cutting, but the thought of it I guess. Why? Because I am a nobody. No one knows I even exist. My parents hate me, and fight all of the time, my friends aren't even my friends, they haven't even realized that I'm not sitting eating lunch with them right now! Check my phone, i can guarantee that there isn't a single notification from anyone..no one acknowledges me! Why? Because I am a nobody, I am a waste of space, a waste of a life. I haven't told anyone else. Not even my friend from back home”, I manage to get out and by the end, I'm back to sobbing.

E just holds me. Comforts me. Calms me down.

“The bell is going to ring in 15 minutes. We should make our way back to the school so you're not late to class”, he remarks softly with a slight chuckle in his voice.

He stands up and reaches his arms up to help me as well and we slowly make out way back to the school.

We reach the doors and E pulls me into one it tight hug before we have to depart for class. Before he let's go, he leans into my ear and whispers, keep your phone on you okay? I'm going to text you. I want to make sure you're okay. I'll maybe see you at the end of the day.”

I just nod to what he is saying. We depart and go to our classes without saying another word.