Falling For Her

Hurt

Today I wake up and I feel the slight pain I had last night I hate this feeling it's fucking annoying I looked at the girl that I supposed to love with all my heart as I picked up the frame looking at her picture

"hmmm....she been leaving often....

'~she does not want you~'

My concussion mocked me as I groan pulling at my hair feeling a weight on my chest as I got out of bed as I got to work grabing my laptop calling my brother giving me what I needed as I got up going to the kitchen hearing her enter the kitchen as I sighted 

'I really don't need this right now'

I say in my head grabing some orange juice as I felt tension turning around 

"are you okay..."

McKenzie: "I'm completely fine....."

"you don't sound like it"

McKenzie: "you don't look like it"

"I'm fine"

I lied as I quickly turned away finishing my orange juice and closed my eyes listen to the faint sound of her breathing 

McKenzie: "out of all people you know that I'm one you can't lie to"

I sighted again as I turn to her 

"I know that is the problem"

McKenzie: "no the problem is her"

"here we go again....when will you accept the fact that we are dating"

McKenzie: "when she is not hurting you"

I huffed in annoyance as she saw right through me once again looking at her as emotionless as I can 

"who said she was hurting me I don't get hurt"

I said that way to fast I saw her look in to my eyes 

McKenzie: "what she do this time not responding in a hour coming back with no excuse and even if she did we all know she was fucking one of her friends..... An everyone can get hurt"

Her voice cracked at the end and I know she was referring to herself as I sighted as my concussion mocked me with the belief of her words yet my heart pulled on to the hope she was wrong 

"your wrong"

McKenzie: "yeah usually I'm right....there is a folder on your bed when you're ready opening it"

She left the room without another word leaving to go to work as I sat on the couch looking at my hands

"what is in that folder....maybe I should throw it away "

'~but you haven't read it~'

my concussion mocked me again as I groan walking the slowest I could to my room siting on the bed as I slowly picked up the folder opening it as my heart dropped 

'how could she do this to me.....'