Possession [s.m]

9.

•rebecca•

I wake up in the morning a little earlier so he doesn't wake up and I can drive myself to campus. My mind is all over the place, and I didn't sleep well at all.

I'm sad, more than anything, and I don't know where the hell to put this sadness.

What was going on with him?

As I drive to campus, my mind floods with thoughts. I know something is bothering him, and he's letting out that anger on me by trying to hurt me in the worst way possible.

It's not just about wanting a baby, it's about the fact that he once told me something different.

When he told me he doesn't want to get married to me and he already feels like we are bonded, because he doesn't like the whole celebration thing, I accepted it because I don't want a huge celebration either.

Something is different about him, he has something to him that I can't quite put my finger on. I didn't just notice it yesterday, but also five months ago.

I don't know how to explain it, but maybe it won't take long until I know what is going on with him fully.

It's a Friday night, and we have a lesson today. I don't want this to cloud my mind and pull me away from listening to my lesson, but I know it will.

I park the car and walk make my way to class, already late.

Jason smiles when he sees me and just his small smile causes a flower to grow in me despite of the bad weather in me.

I sit beside him and he gives me a quick hug. I put my attention on the professor as she goes over the lesson and take notes.

When he finishes the lesson, she gives us a huge package on mental health.

"What's bothering you?" Jason asks, and I stop biting the eraser of my pencil.

"Yeah, you seem off." Kat chimes in, and all I can do is shrug.

"I'd rather not talk about it." I tell them, putting my eyes back on the papers.

I can see them two look at each other then at me from the corner of my eyes but they thankfully don't push it any further.

"Well this information might cheer you up." Kat says and I look up at her. "You know the huge house I'm house sitting?" She asks and I nod.

"Well the owners just told me they'll be gone until the middle of November, so I'm throwing a huge Halloween party next week." She dances in her seat.

I start to giggle at her excitement but shake my head at the though of going to a party. I want to be a normal student in college, but I'm far from that.

No other student here has been taken from her family, sold to a man, got abused, almost died, then somehow fell in love with that man then watched him die, went through a huge depression I had to deal with alone for a whole year, and then he suddenly came back from the dead.

"So are you coming?" Jason asks me, reeling me back in from my thoughts. I shake my head again because the lump in my throat is too big for me to speak properly.

"Why not?" They both day in unison.

I shrug, not having a valid answer.

Suddenly, Kat has her index up Jason's nose and he groans and curses loudly. Kat ignores him and continues to shove her finger up his nose. I can't stop laughing at how violent she is with him and hold onto my stomach while pulling my head back.

"Stop, Kat. You're hurting him." I tell her through laughs.
"Promise me you'll come and I'll leave him." She says.

Jason looks at me with such dispair in his eyes, and I feel bad for him but just can't stop laughing.