how did i hate you? ; nalu

chapter nine

I kissed her forehead, she gave a small smile fast asleep, why'd I do that? I didn't know myself, I didn't even like this girl, yeah I cared about her but.. I stopped myself trying to think of something else, I was so tired looking at the clock my head rested on Lucy's legs on top of the blanket, my eyes soon shut as I fell asleep,

I heard faint giggles as I woke up to find Mira, Levy and Erza taking photos of us both,

They all hid their phones the moment they saw I was awake,

OH NATSU- Erza slightly yelled but whispered trying not to wake Lucy,

Soo what brings you here? Mira smirked eyeing both me and Lucy, had I fallen asleep on her? I cursed under my breath,

Don't tell her I was here. They looked at me confused,

Did you sneak in our something-

No, I just want her to think I was never here.

Nats-

I stood up pulling back the stool I had sat on and placing it against the wall. I walked out the building taking in the fresh air,

I shouldn't even be anywhere close to her, those things I said... unforgivable, whether she remembered or not no one could make up for saying something like that.

I made a promise to myself that day that I would stay away from Lucy Heartfilia. I soon pulled up at my house getting out the car and walking up to my room, I slid the necklace out my pocket pulling open the curtain and hanging it on the tack that held Lucy's photo to the wall, I inspected the photo once more noticing our smiles, I turned away from the photo my eyes now on Wendy, my hand began trembling, I clenched my fist refusing to cry,

I lost them all. First Wendy, then Igneel and now...

Why must my luck be so damn shitty! I banged my fist against the wall leaving a small intend on the map, I sniffled wiping the one tear I felt forming,

This time I'll have to deal with you being alive, but not damn knowing who I am. What's better, you hating me or you not knowing who I am? I couldn't answer that.

I dropped onto my bed facing the roof, I drifted off to sleep still looking at the roof,

The walls and roof faded away turning into stars, I sat up taking in what was around me,

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Hey Natsu...

I turned around hearing Lucy's voice. I found a younger version of Lucy and I sitting on a hill staring at the stars.

My younger self nodded,

I saw Lucy's mouth open like she wanted to talk but nothing came out, my young self rolled his eyes.

Who watches the stars with someone they hate, jeez.

I found myself looking at my young self stand up not looking at Lucy once, walking away leaving her alone,