silent tears

6

Stella

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"No!. I'm not eating anything until I see uncle Connor" Nev screamed running away from me.

I sighed already feeling frustrated. He doesn't want to eat anything unless Connor shows up here. I can't call him now to come, it might be that he's busy in a meeting.

"Do you believe me now?" Mother stood at the bottom of the stairs staring down at me.

I looked away. "Believe what?" I played dumb. She quickly marched over to me.

"Just look, how they bond so well," she said.

I sighed. "Mother, he just likes him" I defended. She scoffed.

"I'm telling you this Stella, you better ask him" she warned.

I stared at her in shock. "You mean you want me to ask  Connor if Nev is his son?!" I stood up glaring at her. She nodded mirroring the same expression as mine. "You're unbelievable mother! You know what just leave. Your time's up anyway" I walked away slamming the door of my room shut.

How can she ask me to do that?. I least expected her to suggest something like that. I sit down on the bed with my head in my hands. It's true that they both bonded quickly, but that doesn't mean anything serious.... Does it?. My son just happens to get along so well with Connor, that doesn't mean that that's his father. I trust him so much...he couldn't, he just couldn't.

"Mom?"

I wiped the tears from my eyes quickly,  smiling as my son approached me. I gathered him in my arms and sat him on my laps. I  kissed his cheek. "Is Uncle Connor coming?" He asked, with sadness in his eyes also lacing his voice.

"I don't know, my son" I said honestly. I wouldn't call him to find out either.

"Have you called him?" He asked.

I shook my head. "No"

"Why not? Please call him please mom" he pleaded with me.

No.

"If he wanted to come, he would have. And I'm not calling him to find out. " I said with finality in my voice.

He frowned at me. "You better call him now" he dared me.

I stared at him in shock. Was he ordering me?. "Look little man," I took him from my laps and made him face me. "You're starting to grow disrespectful. You're ordering your mother around now?. And as to Connor...he's not coming and that's final!" At that point I was in a rage. "Now go to your room!" I gestured towards the door. He hung his head in shame and walked out.

God!. I went too far, I shouldn't have yelled at him like that. I got up and went into his room. He was on his bed, his head buried in his legs. Oh no, he was crying. I sat next to him and run my fingers through his hair. "Nev, I'm sorry" I said. He looked at me with a tearstained face.

"No, I am. I'm sorry for ordering you, mom" he pulled me in for a hug. I gladly wrapped my arms around his small frame and kissed his hair. "I love you" he sobbed.

"Shhhh, don't cry my baby. Mommy loves you too" I told him softly. I pulled away and wiped his eyes. "Now, let's go eat that food" I cupped his face.

He smiled, but it didn't reach his eyes. I sighed. "I promise tomorrow I will personally drag Connor here, does that make you happy?" I  asked him.

He smiled widely at me. "Yea!  Now let's eat that food!"

I  laughed and picked him up in my arms joking with him as we descended the stairs.