silent tears

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I'll leaving for school very soon😥😥so this book might be on hold for some time 😟 I'll be back by fifth July by God's grace 😋 so please don't get mad at me if you stop seeing updates on this book😂😂😂.

Love you and hope you enjoy!❤💙

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Stella

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"What's wrong my child. You look worried" aunt Gina's voice showed up in the midst of my jumbled thoughts. I sat up straight and faced her.

Should I tell her?. I didn't even know if I should tell her or not. I signed. "No, there's nothing wrong" I lied.

She gave me a pointed look. "I've been staring at you for the past fifteen minutes, you look like you're in deep thought. What happened?" She sat next to me on the couch.
Thank God Nev wasn't here. He had left with Connor to a park, that way I was alone to think of my life and him...

I hesitated for a while before speaking up. "It's this guy..." I trailed off when I saw aunt Gina smile. I rolled my eyes. "It's not like that aunt.." I defended.

She snorted. "Then what's it like?"

"I don't know" I whined, it's true, I really didn't know what it was. "It's this man named Finn cross,"

"Jesus!...I've heard that name before" she pursed her lips is deep thought.

"Yea, yea....he's also related to my boss and...." I trail off fiddling with my fingers. She urges me on. "He's shown interest in me"

She squealed. I rolled my eyes.
"Oh my God! What are you waiting for?!" She pat my back.

I sighed. "I'm scared aunt. I've never been in a relationship before and besides I'm thinking of my son..."

"Forget about fright" she wove me off. "It wasnt your fault, whoever did that to you had you drugged doesn't mean you shouldn't trust any man again"

"But.."

"Listen Stella, whoever he is, I'm sure he's good. Since he doesn't even care that you have a son."

"You think I should give him a chance?" I asked unsure.

She nodded vigorously a big smile etching across her face. "Yes, I think you should. Anytime you meet him, tell him and I'm sure he's good looking right?" She wiggled her eyebrows at me. I blushed and looked away from her, a picture of Finn crossing my mind.

She chuckled. "I've got my answer. Your blush is enough"

"Aunt..."

She hugged me tightly and pinched my cheek. "It's been a while since you blushed like that. And I like it, if he's the one causing it, go for it" she hugged me again and left me to my thoughts.

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"Mom!!"

I quickly rounded the corner and hugged my son. "How was your day?"

"Fun!" He laughed. I smiled and walked up to Connor. "Thank you, it meant a lot"

He smiled weakly and ruffled Nev's hair.  I placed him down and asked him to go and change. He nodded and quickly rushed up the stairs. "Should I see you out?"

"No, not yet. I'd like to have a word with you." His voice seemed rushed and he looked quite disturbed. I furrowed my eyebrows.

"Is everything alright?"

He nodded. "Do you know Finn?" He asked, raising an eyebrow questioningly.

My eyes shot open. How does he know him?

"Yes, why?"

"Nothing serious. He's a friend of mine"

Oh..

"Oh, I see" I bit my lip, so he didn't see through my uneasiness.

I avoided his observant look. Connor knew me too well to know what was wrong with me. How could i hide my uneasiness from him?. He hesitated before speaking. "I'm aware he likes you"

I gasped. Did Finn tell him? How?

"He told you?" I asked shocked.

He chuckled lightly. "He tells me basically everything... We're like really close" he smiled.

I nodded in understanding. He placed an arm on my shoulder with an assuring look. "Finn's not a bad guy, you know..." He paused as if he was waiting to see my reaction. I dropped my gaze. Was he going to ask me to give in to Finn as well?

Well, he was my best friend an he wouldn't do anything to harm me...he always  wanted what was best for me and even till now. If he asked me to give in, I would.

"I think you should give him a chance" he whispered softly, I could hardly hear if I was a bit far from him. What he said didn't really reach his eyes but he quickly masked it with an assuring smile. I smiled back.

"If you say so, then....I will give it a try" I told him. For a moment I thought he looked disappointed, but it was quickly wiped off. He pulled me in for a hug wiping fake tears.

I laughed. " I won't always be yours, Slade" I joked.

He smirked. "Believe me, Parker. You're always mine even if you get married"

I playfully swat his arm leading him out of the house to his car. His laughter trailed behind me. I smiled big to myself.

When he got in his car, I waved him good bye and quickly got inside the house to avoid the mean cold outside. But not before seeing him drive off.

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Connor

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Tag someone who has a brain as stupid as mine....no one. It's only me. I'm stupid. Someone, hit me in the face, or insult me, slap me. How the hell did i end up saying that?!

Why did I tell her to accept Finn? What was going on in my head at that time?! I hated myself... So so much. Did that have to happen?! Did Finn really have to fall in love with her at that time?!
Why was life playing those games with me....they're disgusting games and I hate them!

No one can take my Stella from me, no one, not even my closest of friends. My grip on the steering wheel became tight as I made a sharp curve, seeing my house not so far away.

Why? Why? Why?!

I really wanted Stella, all for myself. I didn't want to give her out. She had my son with her...my son!. Finn....God! Finn!

This is crap!