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7

Connor

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Not just that, the best of them all..

Those words kept ringing in my head. I wasn't the best of them all, I was the worst. Once she found out about it, she would hate me forever. I couldn't stand the built anymore.

Things were getting worse now. Her son grew fond of me so fast. The boy wants to see every day all the time. The more I saw him, the more I saw my reflection and my evil actions, staring back at me. I love him, I love his mother, too. But I don't know how long I'd keep this. It's quite clear that she wouldn't accept me once she found out. I can't think of any other woman apart from her. What should I do?
Wait, I know what to do, I'll make her fall for me. That way it will cover up. That way things would be much easier.

The door to my office swung open, my closest friend Finn walked in cursing loudly. "What the hell is wrong with you? Do you want to break down my door?!" I yelled. He ignored me and sat on the chair opposite me.

He buried his head in his hands and swore. I looked at him observing his actions. I hesitated before speaking. "What's wrong with you?"

He sighed and looked at me. "I'm crazy about her. But she just won't give me a chance" he muttered.

That's exactly what I fear.

"Oh, so you're in love?" I teased.

He glared at me. "Hey, there comes a time when the player has to settle, Slade"

I laughed. "An it's sad when he decides to settle with someone who plays hard to get. Especially when he's not used to hearing no from women"

He rolled his eyes. "I came to the wrong person"

"Tell me about it"

"She works at my uncle's company. She's his PA. God! I couldn't get my eyes off her the day I saw her, since then I've been stalking her" he explained.

"You're crazy" I stated, observing the folders in front of me.

He stood up and paced up and down the office. He rubbed his face inhaling deeply. I chuckled, whoever she was has definitely struck him....hard.
"She's in your head now?" I snickered.

He nodded, pouting, his face turning red. Later, he smiled cunningly running his fingers on his lips. This was disgusting.... Did he have to do that in front of me?
"Ugh!...stop that Cross!"

He groaned. "Her lips are damn soft" he muttered. I looked at him in shock.

"You kissed her?"

"What could I do?" He looked priceless. Quite funny. "I couldn't get a hold of myself"

"Do you love her or you're just lusting after her?" I know Cross and his dealings with women, he gets bored easily. He's probably frustrated with this one since she's not giving in to him. He must work his butt off if he really wants her.

"She's not the kind of woman that you just fuck and leave" he rolled his eyes. "She's the type that you'd want to spend the rest of your life with, the type you never get enough of" at that point he looked like he was dreaming. I smiled at him.

Out of curiosity, I asked him, "what's her name?"

He hesitated for a while. "Stella, Stella Parker"

I felt the blood drain from my face as I processed his words, freezing in my actions my face faltering.

Shit! Shit! Crap!

My Stella?!

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Stella

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I couldn't sleep that night, I kept thinking about it. I kept thinking about him. Why? Finn, why?. I tossed and turned on the bed, I could still feel his warm lips on mine. Why couldn't I accept him then, if I was feeling that way??. Why was it so difficult.
Finn was a nice guy, dashing and the kind of man any woman would kill for, then why?

It wasn't my fault. It was due circumstances that I kept pushing him away. I wouldn't deny that I was attracted but....

Stella stop! You need to rest, you have work tomorrow.

Of course I do, then why sleep? Why did I keep on thinking about him? It's all his fault. If only he left me alone, if only he didn't kiss me. But how could just one kiss have me thinking about him nonstop? Was that even possible?. Ugh! I really need to stop and sleep somehow.

Connor said he'd be here tomorrow to take Nev out and I'm glad about that. I can't blame Nev for liking Connor that much, he was naturally nice to hang out with. I was so engrossed in my thoughts that I didn't notice when the goddess of sleep came my way.

Ikkkkkk........it's short but I really need to sleep now. promise I'll make it up to you tomorrow😉😉

Thanks and loves❤💙

Essy;)