taste

twenty; anothers view

suggested song; callin' - alec bailey
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the party for me, you're wondering? it sucked. grayson didn't leave alison's side so i didn't get to talk to her once. "another long day to add to the books." i said to myself as i sneaked in through the window.

i lived by myself but in a building which i shouldn't live in, i have very little in my home; a bed and a few lights. it gets hella lonely.

i lay in bed on my phone for hours, until i'm so drained i have to sleep - usually that's about four or five in the morning.

it's not like i had some dumb ass voice in my head to talk to, it was me alone with nothing and no one.

i had sams old iphone 6 that he'd let me charge at school and when i see him but other than that i legit have nothing but it's no big deal, you learn to live with it.

i just laid there, listening to the scene around me, thinking of her and how i never should've left. i wish i was fourteen again rather than eighteen.

as soon as i was about to pass out, the phone started ringing, "what do you want?" i asked aggressively through the phone, not knowing or caring who it was.

"bit harsh, don't you think chris?" they replied.

i sat up in shock, "oh god, alison, i'm so sorry!" i exclaimed.

she laughed, "don't worry, i just expected you'd be to up too."

i smiled, "obviously, so what's up?"

"i just wanted to know when you're moving into the pack house, you're still joining aren't you?" she asked.

"definitely, and i'll move in when you want me too but don't you think that's a bad idea?"

she sighed, "i can be friends with guys, dumbass. i'm stronger than i look to so if gray doesn't like it than that's his problem but i think he'll be chill."

"fine. i'll talk about it tomorrow at school, you should probably sleep." i sighed, having her talk about him just felt like a knife and she didn't even know she was pushing it deeper.

"oh, okay. good night chris." she said and put the phone down.

how could i have let her go? i should've never let her go.

the pain in her eyes last night, she didn't deserve it but if she loves him i can't do anything about it - no matter what i think.

all i can hope is that he treats her like the queen she is and with the respect she deserves; treat her like i should've treated her.

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very short chapter but this is just to see chris's life style and feelings.
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