This is my life!

Chapter 5

I've been pacing all night long, every time I shut my eyes, even to blink, I saw the 3 men still lying on my hallway floor.

Where's my parents in need them right now, more than ever.

Am I a bad person? Technically they were trespassing.

The sun is just starting to come up so I check the time on my phone and find 30 missed calls off both of my best friends, 15 each.

Fuck, I bet they're scared shitless.
Do I phone them back?
But it's like 5.30
Fuck it.

I decide to just leave it, I can't phone them both at the same time soo I might aswell just wait till I go to school.

I snap myself out of my pacing, and start getting ready for school.

I jump in the shower and start cleaning all of the dried blood off of mee. Once I'm clean and have successfully removed about 4 layers on skin, I jumped out dried myself off and start getting dressed, I throw on a pair of black ripped skinny jeans, a grey skin tight crop top and my black leather jacket.

When I'm nearly ready, I brush my teeth, throw on my Nike SB SnapBack and my all black Jordan's. I checked my phone to find another 20 missed calls from my best friends, shit I bet they're worried shitless.

Ahh well they can wait another 15 minutes for me. When I'm finally ready I make my way downstairs stepping over the dead people that are still in my hallway, i still haven't cleaned up and tbf I don't know where to start so I'm just going to leave it till later.

I walk into the kitchen to find their point of entry, the window, there's glass everywhere it's a good job I've got shoes on. I grab a cereal bar because my stomach is aching to be fed considering I haven't eaten anything since lunch yesterday and even that was disgusting school food.
And finally I'm out the door, I can't fucking wait for my birthday, it's literally just around the corner. I just wish it would come sooner a lot sooner.

The walk to school was a lot quicker than normal, maybe it was because my thoughts were all over the place, I couldn't put two and two together.

When I finally reached the school gates my two best friends ran and engulfed mee in a hug like I've never had before.

They just kept asking if I was okay, what happened, did anyone come to my house last night.

I couldn't answer any of them, my mouth wasn't working properly, neither was my brain. I couldn't connect anything together.

I wasn't even able to reciprocate the hug, which only seem to make them tighter their hold on mee.

I tried to free myself by I just didn't have the strength right now, I wasn't in the right state of mind.

Is this my life now?

They finally let go of me and I was free to just walk away into school. I could hear them chasing after me, still repeating the same questions as they was asking mee prior to walking in school.

I just blocked them out and blocked myself into my own thoughts, which at the moment wasn't a safe place to be right now.

I can't seem to get the image of those men lying there on my floor out of my head. And was how I stayed for the rest of the day, completely out of it, not knowing where I was going or what I was doing, I was just in a daze.

Am I going to jail?
I'm to young to wear orange?&orange really isn't my colour either.

I can't cope with these thoughts anymore, I just can't. I need my mum and dad. I need them and I need them now.