Unloveable

Chapter four-To good to be true? Nah!

I have noticed that whenever im with somebody  know Im gonna love I dont think to cut myself. Well thats how it is with Loreli. I have a good feeling this is gonna last! I have only been here for a couple weeks and she seemed so amazing to me. She was beautiful and kind and very understanding. I I think I loved her before she ever realized it.

One night I was sitting in my room and images of Nancy Wess and Liz ran thro my mind, without thinking and with a vacant look I reached for my blade and sliced it across my wrist. As I did this Loreli walked in. "Pheonix! Oh stop!" She cried grabbing my hand and pulling the blade away. Tears streamed from my eyes as I saw the faces of everybody I ever loved. "Pheonix..." She used her white shirt and pressed it against my wrist and pulled my head down against her chest. "Hush now its ok." She said soothingly.

I eventually snapped out of it and looked down at my wrist then at her shirt. I pulled off and jumped up. "Oh my gosh...I....Im sorry." I was stunned as I realized she didnt know this part of me.

"No....Its ok Pheonix." She smiled then stood up and walked up to me. I looked down at the blood on her shirt and stopped her. "Please change first." I said feeling bad for staining her shirt and throwing all this on her at once.

"Its ok Pheonix...I dont mind I'll change later." She steps up to me and grab my hand gently then stands on her tippy toes and kisses me.

I kiss her back then pull off a little surprised. "I love you." I said without thinking.

"I love you to." She smiles and kisses my cheek before going to change. I bandaged my wrist and  lied back on the bed.

I was surprised that after basically scareing her like that that she still loved me I guess this is what true love is. If it is...I like it.