You kill me (in a good way)

Seventeen Ain't So Sweet

I remember the day I found out I was pregnant with Rose. I was freaking out because I knew my parents were going to kill me for what I did. When I told them I was having a baby they told me I was making the biggest mistake of my life. Then after giving me a lecture about it they kicked me out of the house. I was happy I had Kellin there for me when I needed him. I knew he didn't like Alex much because of it but he never hated me. He was the protective and understanding big brother that I needed.

Being a seventeen year old girl was hard enough but being a seventeen year old girl with a baby was even harder. Everyone I knew thought I was a slut because I had a baby. Truth be told the guys were just assholes and the women were sluts. Most of the girls in my high school slept around with everyone they could. I was with one guy and one guy only. I may have gotten pregnant but at least I knew who the babies daddy was without having to have a paternity test taken to prove anything. My parents only started to see me again after I gave Rose up for adoption and then they stopped because they couldn't handle the idea of me with a baby.

Alex and I had raised Rose for a year before giving her up and it was hard on both of us. Now she's gone and Alex doesn't even know about it. So for about three years I never once talked or saw my parents. I knew it was because they didn't like what happened but for some reason they never hated Alex only me.

I remember everything I went through my whole life since I was 16. My best friend stopped talking to me when I got together with Alex. I heard she married a guy named Ryan and moved to New York City with him. Her and my best friend other than ourselves was named Bryan and she had a major crush on him. He died in a car crash with his girlfriend. She survived because it was on his side. He died on impact. His brothers name was Ryan, I am sure he was the one she married.

Bryan was always a sweet guy and I miss him just as much as I miss Marissa. His girlfriend at the time is now married to a guy from England. She married him for the money not because she loved him. She was only with Bryan because of a bet. Brittany, captain of the cheer leading squad, dating an outcast because her brother was the captain of the football team.

Bryan I am sure only dated her to make either me or Marissa jealous but I don't know which one. He was always quite when it came to the people he liked even with us his best friends. I worried about him sometimes. When I got the call about him dying in a car crash I was so upset I didn't know what I was going to do. I knew Marissa was crying and probably hurting herself wanting to be with him. I also found a picture that he had given to me of us and I looked at it. I took it out of the frame and just stared at me and my best friend. I still have to picture in my room. I knew this was going to be hard just going n without Bryan and Rose.

Flashback

“Kali wait up we are not in that big of a hurry.” Bryan said to me.

“But we have to get there early otherwise the good spots will be taken.” I yelled at him.

“You never cease to amaze me Kali.” He told me as he caught up. At that point I thought there might have been a double meaning to what he had said but I shrugged it off.

“We are here. Finally and look to spots right in the front of the concert.” I smiled knowing I had won this battle. Bryan just smiled at me with a look of thought I was just about to ask him what he was thinking when Marissa came up next to us. I knew Marissa liked him so I didn't want to know what it was he was thinking with her around.

“Hey Rissa whats up?” I asked her wondering why she looked all mad.

“Not much wondering why you guys are going to an All Time Low concert without me.” She said.

I knew Marissa didn't like me hanging out with Bryan by myself because she thought I was going to steal him away from her. Truth is I didn't tell her because I wanted to hang out with Bryan without her saying 'I wish he would just see how much I like him.' Plus Marissa never liked All Time Low like Bryan and I did.

Through out the whole concert Marissa was talking about Bryan and Alex was staring at me. Marissa noticed and mouthed 'back off she's mine' up to him. He stopped staring and I didn't know what had happened. Marissa didn't like when new people tried to take her friends away. She already had to deal with it from Brittany so she made it her job to keep Alex and I apart.

Marissa went home and Bryan just sat in the car with his head in his hands trying to figure out how to tell me something I am sure. When I got to his house I just put my hand on his shoulder and he looked up at me. “Bryan are you okay? You seemed kind of out of it today?” I asked him but he didn't answer he just got out of the car and went inside.

The next day Bryan wasn't in school. I thought it might have been something I had done but it wasn't. He was at home working on something and he dropped off a picture to my house and to Marissa's house. When he picked up Brittany from school he just looked at us with a tear in his eye. Later that night we found out he was in a car wreck and everyone was a mess from then on. I went out with Alex because I needed to feel something again. Marissa stopped talking to me the minute I called Alex.

End Flashback

I never found out what it was that Bryan wanted to say or why he was acting so weird. To this day I just think it was he didn't want to be friends with me and Marissa anymore.