Dead Inside

End of the Mystery

     Over the weekend mom's boyfriend moved in with us. I spent the days helping move his stuff in and move things around to make room for him to live there. Of course he would be sleeping in mom's room, we still had to make room for his big TV, nice leather couch, and other sweet luxuries we could never afford. I may not be totally excited about this random guy moving in, but I would never break that glimmer of hope and love in my mom's eyes. I willingly accept this man no matter my own opinions.
     Due to all the moving around we were doing over the weekend, I never had time to stop by the cafe to find this girl. So I determine to go by after school today. That is, If I make it through my day without murdering some idiot. High School sturggles are crazy for me, mostly due to me being one of those "emo kids." I don't mind the label, but kinda hate the label; I'm a person and that's all that matters.
     I can't believe I will be getting my answers today, it's been killing me to not know what is going on in my life. Got the last clue and it leads to the cafe, there I get to talk to this blonde girl whom I never see at school. Also, I think I'm kind of figuring out this whole thing with the demon that keeps following and possessing me. My encounters in the shed have been pretty intense and painful for me in so many ways. The things I saw made me want to end it all for me. As if something or someone wanted me to go insane. Yet I won't know anything for sure until I go to the cafe today.
     Finally the bell rings, setting me free from hell. I go to my locker to gather all my things for the day, but when I open my locker I stop in fear. As if to haunt me, the words "Don't fail me" were scrawled on the inside. Why is this still happening? What force wants me to go through this pain? It still makes no sense to me, then again nothing ever does. I ignore the words written, determined to get answers today. Gathering my things, I turn and walk out the door towards the cafe.
     As I'm walking along the road, I can't help but notice that demon following me. All the way to the cafe it was there, and honestly getting on my everlasting nerve. I wanted to turn around and tell it to go to hell and stop bothering me, but I'm already the town's joke; don't want to make that any worse. So I just continue walking as if nothing was bothering me. I finally arrive at the cafe and stop by the door. I turn and see no one and nothing behind me, I guess the thing decided to go away somewere along the treck.
     I take a deep breathe and open the doors to go inside. I look around, but don't see the blonde girl anywhere. I stand there for a moment before relizing how stupid I must look just standing in the middle of the room. So I go and order myself a coffee, and take a seat while waiting for this girl. My coffee gets brought out to me, but with a note attatched to it. This just drives me insane. We were supposed to meet her, I was supposed to get my answers here. It was not supposed to be a continuation to this riddle she's been playing at. Yet I read the note anyway.
     "You're in the wrong place, Enter at your own risk." What the hell she mean I'm in the wrong spot? We were supposed to meet at the cafe, nowhere else in this city could be a better place to meet. I get up and walk out of the cafe. I start walking home in a mad rage, I don't deserve this treatment. No person should go through this much trouble for some girl. Then it hit me. I'm going through all this trouble for a girl.....how many times do we go through all these things just to impress someone. How much are we willing to risk and look stupid just to get someone's attention.
     I have been going to the ends of the earth, changing me, doing things I would never otherwise do; all to please this girl I don't really even know. How much further are we willing to go to make someone love us, when in reality they may not be in your life forever. It hurts to see my own stupidity, how I have fallen into this trap so many others have fallen into. I decide that enough is enough for me, I will no longer chase after this girl. If she wants to talk, she can find me. I'm tired of running around all for her.
     I have managed to walk in a loop across the street from the cafe. I come back to reality and behind the cafe I see a sign. It reads: "Enter at your own risk." I don't know why I didn't think of that before, there is woods that end in a cliff about a mile behind the cafe; thats the place I need to be. So I cross the street to the fence, kinda double thinking my decision to enter. I mean what if no one is there and it's all just a cruel joke on me; wouldn't be the first time it's happened. Yet I decide to take a risk and go through the gate.
     I find myself walking for awhile through the woods, looking for this girl. I search every clearing from the gate all the way to the cliff, yet there is no one in sight. I kinda figured as much. There was no one meeting me here, and the whole mystery clue thing was just some hilarious prank on the weird kid. I take a seat by a tree and sit there hating myself for falling for it, just as I always do. Well, since I'm here I may as well take some time to enjoy the outdoors. I lay back and look up, which is when I see it; and see her sitting there watching me with a smirk on her face.