Angel {COMPLETED}

Chapter 11

Queens, New York
Sunday, December 2
Lucifer

"I don't wanna go, I'm not going to a fucking funeral!" I snapped, punching a hole into Onika's wall then sat on her bed.

"Beyonce! My wall!"

"I'll pay for it." I mumbled. "I'm still not going."

She straddled my lap and held my face in her hands, making me look into her eyes. "You have to go. Nana did everything for you, she basically raised you, you have to go to her funeral. She would love for you to be there, if anything."

"Baby..." My eyes watered. I didn't want to see my Nana not alive. I needed her to be here right here, right now. It hurts so bad not to have her here right now.

"Talk to me."

"It hurts that Nana isn't here to help me through this. Nana has always been there to help me through everything. How's Nana gonna help me now? How's she gonna help me out with HER death?"

"You know Nana's been trying to get you to be able to live without always having to call on her for everything. She loves you, she just wants you to have your own life."

"I have my own damn life, I just want her in it." I held onto her waist tightly. "Do you love me Onika?"

She sighed. "Of course I love you. Why do you ask?"

"'Cause it feels like you don't. Nana told me that I needed to show you love but it's like you don't show me shit but anger and precaution for Cavalli. I love Valli and I'd never hurt her but don't trust me-"

"Beyonce, you understand why I don't trust you."

"Yes, I understand why you don't trust me. This is why I was trying to get the fuck out of this game."

She looked deep in thought. I didn't want her to move. I just wanted her close to me a little bit longer. I was scared, I didn't wanna lose her too. Her and Cavalli gave meaning to my life and I wouldn't want to live if anything happened to them.

At the same time, if it weren't for Nana, Onika would be dead right now. If it wasn't for Nana telling me that she liked her, that she wanted nothing to happen to her, Onika wouldn't have even got as close as she did. I was thankful.

"Can you promise me something?"

"What?" Her hands found mine.

"If we never get back together, find someone that's got nothing to do with this life. You're smart so stop dealing with drug dealers. Find someone who genuinely loves my daughter and who actually won't hurt her."

Her eyes watered like crazy but she wouldn't let her tears fall. "I'm not going to date or be married to anybody else Bey."

Someone knocked on the door and I knew it was Cavalli. Just by those small knocks but she wouldn't open her mouth to say anything.

"Come in baby."

"I can't push the door open!" She yelled.

"Go get it for her." I said and she got up to open the door for Cavalli who was holding Onika's phone in her hand.

"Mommy somebody keeps interrupting my game."

"You look cute Princess."

Cavalli jumped on the bed beside me and I fixed her dress while she fixed her shoes. She smiled at me. "Look. I did it."

"Mommy said you do that a lot."

"Uh huh. I practice in the mirror."

"Why? I taught you how."