Honey

Does your mum know you share women?

Last night was amazing, although we didn't do anything more than our little session in the kitchen earlier that night. We spent the night talking, laughing and cuddling. 

Let me tell you, cuddling with two hulking men... whew. My thoughts are forever travelling to a sexual place and I am no longer shamed of that. We have a way to go but I feel like this is where I'm meant to be. Where Lex is supposed to be, with me, surrounded by these two men.

Nick had to leave early this morning, something to do with one of his sites. I understood and he was grateful, John on the other hand all but threw him out the door. 

Nick kind of hogged me all night, pay back for John hogging me last night. 

I hope they don't do this all the time, I want to be with both equally just as much as I enjoy the alone time with each of them. 

John and I laid together, he asked whether I'd be open to marriage, more kids etc. Although it may seem early on, I understood his concern. 

John being 37, he wants to get married, have kids before he can't. Apparently Nick is the same, although has said to John he'd just fill me with babies if he could. I laughed at that, such a Nick thing to say.

I  agreed with everything, I was open to it all. I told him I wouldn't make them wait years but I need time to sort stuff with Hunter and to have Alexandra okay with all this. 

John agreed, although he doesn't want me anywhere near Hunter he understood but wants to help and so does Nick. 

John insisted Alexandra be brought over, I said he didn't have to but he said he wanted to speak to her. 

I rang mum and let her know, she seemed so happy that I was with John, although she doesn't know about Nick, I don't think she'd have an issue, it's dad I worry about. 

"Does your mum know you share women?" I blurt out from John's chest. He chuckles and rans his fingers through my hair. 

"We've never wanted to share a woman before... Mum is aware of our feelings for you, she was more scared of your reaction than us sharing you. Mum really likes you." He smiles, god he's just so fucking hot.

"Oh... really? what's different this time?" I'm genuinely curious, I mean obviously they would've had to have relationships before, just wondering why I'm the first they'd want share. I'm not exactly a catch.

He chuckles, "We both have quite a strong pull to you, odd because weve never had that with any other woman. We've both dated separately all our lives until you.. We feel like you're it for us. We can't explain it..."He trails off, our eyes watching each other. 

Immediately I smashed my lips against him, he wasn't surprised, if he was he hid it well. John is such a dominant person in general which is already attractive but his bedroom dominance is another level. 

He throws me over the top of him, a squeak falling from my lips and cages me under his strong arms. 

We rolled around, exploring each other, kissing, touching and embracing. We'd gotten pretty hot and heavy, my shirt was off and John was about to rip his sweats off before there was a knock at his door. 

He growled loudly, I giggled and slipped my top back on before heading downstairs. I don't think I'm comfortable enough to open his door yet so I allow him too. Lex bowled in and made a b-line straight for Buddy. 

"She was great, missed you and whoever buddy is..." Mum says, eyes switching between me and John's flustered looks. 

She stifles a giggle and lets us be, she left letting me know dad wants us around for dinner again soon and off she went. 

"She knew..." I say mortified with my head in my hands, John laughs at my embarrassment, pulling me into a hug. 

"We look fine, don't worry about it." He smiles, leading me over to Lex and Buddy playing in the loungeroom. 

"Mumma! I miss you so much!" Lex squeals as she runs over to me, wraps her tiny arms around me almost knocking me to the floor. I laugh and start to tickle her. 

"John!" She surprises him by launching her tiny frame onto him too. He quickly catches her and spins her around, girly giggles filled the room. 

I stand back and watch the two whisper and giggle with each other. My heart warms and my stomach flutters, this is what it could be like all the time.

I was brought out my thoughts when there was another knock at the door, Lex squealed and ran to open it. I have told her to be polite in other people's homes but by the look on John's face he told her to do it. 

"Nic Nic!" She squeals again, jumping up and down.

"Alexandra! what a nice surprise! Did you miss me that much you wanted to see me?!" Nick teases, giving Lex a smirk, she blushes and nods her head. 

He smiles and gives her a hug, I get the same feeling I had watching John and Lex. This kid has amazed me though, like myself, John and Nick have obviously moved quite fast in the relationship aspect but Lex hasn't spent much time with them but feels so comfortable and John and Nick are so good with her. 

It makes me feel so much better about my decision to I guess, give this whole thing ago. 

John and Nick both look to each other and nod, must be some kind of brother telepathy because I sure as hell have no idea what they're nodding about. 

"Lex, lets hold a group meeting shall we?" Nick says and she nods, smiling and tugging his and John's hands to the lounge. 

I move too and take a seat on the lounge. Lex sits in between the two and has buddy at her feet. 

"Now Alexandra, Mummy wants to talk to you about something, okay?" I say softly, her smile doesn't falter, as if she knows what's coming.