The Moon Nymph and the Wolf [JimSu Angst AU]

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"The moon will guide you through the night with her brightness, but she will always dwell in the darkness, in order to be seen."

[Yoongi's POV]

Giddy. That's how I feel right now. I actually woke earlier than before because I was just too excited. Since it was still afternoon, I decided to visit the Stellar Lake. I smiled as I saw my reflection in the black and stary lake. The small balls of energy shining and some starting to come out as it's time for them to be born.

A soft smile crept on my face and I couldn't help but grow curious, what was my past before I was born yet again? I touched the cold liquid with the tips of my fingers and I saw myself. I decided to close my eyes in order to see it clearly and I swayed my fingers back and forth in the icy cold black translucent water.  

But I wasn't a boy, I was a girl. I didn't have my hideous freckles, which made me feel relieved. I was just admiring my sight from down on Earth when I heard a rustle in the woods. I grew a little panicked so I grabbed a branch nearby me and used it to defend myself. Hiding wouldn't do it. I was shining and since twilight was breaking through the Horizon and I've already kissed my partner in order for him to take over me, I was just waiting for the sun to rise and the stars to hide and go to sleep with the Moon Nymph.

I was a Queen, I was the Moon Queen, and now I realized that Hoseok was still my partner. I was ruling with him, but we didn't love each other. We felt nothing but friendship towards each other since I knew that his love belonged to another girl. A Sun Nymph.

I furrowed my eyebrows, it was all too similar. Only Hoseok and I were not married yet. But just then, a gigantic wolf came out of the busted and lunged itself onto me. I screamed and I felt it pin my arms down and growling at me. I was terrified. I was on the verge of tears.

"Please! Do not harm me! I swear that I've done nothing wrong! Please forgive me! Do not harm me!" I said between my cries.

The wolf then got off of me but still hovered on top of me. I then heard him whine and I flinched a little. There was something tied around its torso and the wolf slowly turned smaller, and to my shock, it was a human. A naked man and I covered my eyes and I heard him put some clothes on.

"I do not mean to harm you, but you are invading my family's territory, you might as well explain why such a beautiful creature like you is lingering in such dangerous woods," his eyes were icy blue, as blue as the sky.

His long grey hair and his soft but sharp features looked so much like Jimin. He looked exactly like him. I felt my heart skip a beat, was this Jimin's ancestor?! How can it be? But I didn't have time to react because my memory jumped when a scene appeared of us kissing. I traced my lips with my other hand and I felt how soft his luscious lips felt against mine. The kiss was innocent, but then it got heated and his touch was like wildfire running in my veins.

"I love you," he whispered against my lips.

"I love you too," I whispered back and one thing led to the other. Our bodies entangled in each other, seeing each other naked and making love to each other. Lips caught one another in hunger, each other's pleasures were heard in the calm night like a melody. I remember that I felt overjoyed. How good I felt being with him like that. His hands roaming my naked body, his touch light to the touch like the breeze in the night, always careful as if he didn't want to break me apart like glass.

The other memory was when I was holding my stomach and he kissed and caressed my stomach, his eyes filled with tears of joy.

"Our little baby... I still can't believe this. We're finally going to be a happy family," he kissed my lips and I kissed back. 

I jerked my hand back, I opened my eyes. I felt tears coming to flood my eyes. I didn't want to believe that I've been with him in a life before this. I didn't want him to go through the same thing again, but this time, there won't be any child. I'm not a girl, I was born a man this time. I wouldn't be able to bear him children even if I wanted to. Jimin wouldn't have a little guy to make the pain bearable.

I've never wanted the Stellar Lake to quickly pick another couple just to spare me and Hoseok. I wanted to avoid that kind of pain to Jimin. I didn't want him to go through that pain ever again. I don't want to leave him. Not when we've just found each other once more.

"Why are you doing this to me again? Why won't you let me be happy with him? If we've been together before, why won't you let me be happy with him? Just this lifetime and I'll stop bothering you. Just this once, I want to be with him. I want to stay by his side. He will suffer when he realizes that I won't be able to stay with him. He'll end up hating me! Why are you doing this to me?!" I yelled at the Stellar Lake, knowing perfectly that I wouldn't receive any answer from it whatsoever.

I wish I've come here earlier in my childhood. I wished I could have found Jimin sooner and spend more years by his side. Why didn't I go here when I was learning about the Stellar Lake and its powers to contain every memory that we leave there?

"I can't leave him again... please... choose the next Moon King or Queen quickly, I don't want to be the reason of his pain."