The Moon Nymph and the Wolf [JimSu Angst AU]

[18]

"And he beholds the moon; like a rounded fragment of ice filled with motionless light."

[Yoongi's POV]

I finally feel his lips, how soft they felt against mine. I was reviving those memories from my past life. I felt happy, I felt like I did the right thing. He kissed my lips like they were gonna rip apart with the slightest force he made. He was really gentle and I could savor the taste of something sweet on his lips and something that I couldn't put my finger on. But it was fresh.

Jimin softly broke the kiss and then pecked my lips, I giggled and put our foreheads together.

"When you want to kiss me, don't ask for permission, you know very well that I wouldn't reject your kisses. Rather, I would feel blessed to have them for as long as you want. I don't want anyone else's kisses if it's not you who kisses me."

"Are you sure?" he looked at me in the eyes, searching for any trouble in my eyes.

I smiled and pulled him into another kiss, his lips felt like heaven and I wanted to savor more the strange sweetness and the cool sensation that I kept tasting in his lips. He licked my bottom lip, I let out a shaky gasp and before I could process what had happened, his tongue was playing with mine.

And there it was again, the cool taste that I keep tasting in his mouth. I tilted my way, giving him more access to keep brushing his tongue against mine. It was addicting, and I was more than happy to drug myself in his love and kisses. With my eyes closed, I enjoyed every second, every touch, and every breath that we shared together.

The kiss was slow but then it started to get needier when I started to moan into the kiss. He was a great kisser, I'd have to tell him that. When his hands touched my torso from under my loose tunic, I felt like he was sending shocks of electricity down my spine. My legs felt weak, but my arms held onto his shoulders tightly. Without a warning, he picked me up by my legs and I gasped a little, breaking the kiss just for a brief second. A string of saliva connected our lips and all my mind wanted was all of him.

"Love me..." I whispered, feeling the sparks in my freckles shine furiously as I remember that night in my past life with him. In the same clearing. Where our past life led us to meet yet once again.

"I do love you," he told me.

"No Jimin... Love me... t-touch me more..." our noses brushed against one another.

"Wouldn't it be too early for us to do this? Are you sure you want this?" he asked me, his lips brushing against my ear softly.

I bit my lips, I wanted all of him just like last time. Even if I cannot bear a child myself, I want to be loved by him. He is already my first kiss, I want him to be my first in everything. I don't wanna regret not taking this chance to show him how much I trust him and love him.

"You won't hurt me if that's what's worrying you. I trust you Jimin. You would never hurt me. You've never done that. And I don't want to regret later on not having this chance in being this intimate with you. Please... indulge me."

I could see that he was nervous, I know he didn't want to hurt me, but the memory of his past life with mine kept coming back to my mind. He was careful, he made sure I was comfortable enough in order to make me his and mark me as much as he wanted. I was craving it now. I wanted everything from him, all of him. I only want him to be mine, just like I'll only be his. If I was being selfish, then I do not regret being this selfish.

I want him to make me his just like last time. Was I rushing things? Maybe a little, but I think I will rather be taken by him, then to waste time later on regretting not taking this chance to give him my all. I know that I don't deserve him for what I'm about to put him in, but I want him to know that I love him. I want him to not doubt of my love for him and just wait for me until the stupid Stellar Lake chooses someone else just so that I won't be away from him.

I don't want to lose him, not like this, not again. I don't want to be looking at him from afar and seeing him miserable. At least when he had the child when I last left him, he found comfort that my child was proof of my love for him. I want him to have this night as proof that my love for him won't change. It will stay the same as the weeks and months go by. I don't know for how long it will be once the Stellar Lake chooses someone more worthy of the throne than myself.

I don't want to rule the world if it means being away from him. If I don't have him by my side, I don't want anything else but him. I don't want to lose him again. If it hurt me deeply last time, it will be twice as painful this time.

"Yoongi... why are you crying?" he whispered against my ear. "It's okay, we dn't have to do this. Let's just enjoy the date and enjoy being together. We can always do this another time. Okay?" he kissed my temple.

That's when I completely broke down crying, "I love you... I will always love you."

"You think that I'll stop loving you?" he lightly asked.

I nodded my head.

"That's none sense, I'll never stop loving you. Even if you hurt me, I wil always forgive you and love you."