Always (Helpless #2)

Five

JUNGKOOK POV

"I broke up with you because Jaehyun threatened me."

It took everything in me to say the words out loud but I did, because deep down, I always wanted her to know.

Her expression is pure shock, her mouth fell open and her eyes widen to their maximum size.

She opened her mouth, close it, open, close, like an animated goldfish, "are you joking?" She finally said.

"No. He told me to, or else he will do something to you, and not just you. My family, hyungs, all of the people I know and care about basically."

I make my voice regretful but not like a guy in pain, just as a person asking for forgiveness by explaining their reasons.

"I lied that day, at the emergency staircase-" I've kept my eyes on her and surprise flicker on her eyes, "I truly do like you back then, but I have to do it."

Back then

Now that's the untold truth, because I still do like her.

If I don't, will I risk my career trying to capture Jaehyun behind the bars?

Risking my life?

If I don't, will my heart still beat this fast when I'm with her?

I still like her.

I may even love her.

I don't know that.

But I do know one thing.

I can't be with her. I also understand that perfectly well.

Not because of Jaehyun, but because people expect idols to stay single. The moment we dated, fanbase decrease and it will lose reputation and money.

Of course, being discovered that me and V hyung are doing some sort of jobs that detective will do, is a bigger threat.

But Bang PD nim understands and as long as it doesn't disturb our schedule, he allowed us with a lot of careful advices from him.

I can't ask for a better boss.

Which is why, apart from getting this mission discovered, I can't risk to show her my feelings.

Not that she still likes me.

I will hate myself if I was her.

But still.

But I still want you..

I waited for her to say something.

I've been practicing this line inside my brain so often I lost count, which means I've perfected my tone, my choice of words and my expression.

But the way she's just staring at me makes me thinking if my practice doesn't completely work.

Its like she's trying to look into my soul, intense like that.

Finally, she relaxed and smiles, "thank you for telling me."

What does that suppose to mean? But asking her opinion will probably ruin my untold truth or it will make me look like an insensitive guy.

"Are we cool now?" This one is better-I think-and she nods.

"We're cool, Jungkook. For this part only. Evidence wise, we have to see about that."

I hid my smile, I'm glad her attitude is still there, its what I like about her.

Well, not just that, I like how she's smart with computer, a good fighter and yet a compassionate person-