Forever Siblings; come what may..

Chapter Thirteen

"When did you start enjoying country music?" She asks when our shoulders brash as I open the door for her. I knew it wasn't long before this comes.
She knows my music but I can still manage a lie."I have loved country music all through!" When she rolls her eyes at me, I know that my lie hasn't found a soft landing. She is my twin and I won't deceive her easily.

Our arms are tucked nicely together as we walk to the entrance. I am aware of the stares coming our way as we head past the ground lounge to the staircase. We are doing this to cause confusion and as sure as hell, we are really there. At the foot of the stairs, Allie misses a step and she almost trips. "Oh, sorry darling." I am very fast to get her.

"Darling sister." She reminds me immediately.

"Oh. It's you Allie." I whisper in her ear. Teasingly. She cocks her head on one side and we both laugh that over.

Second floor is not crowded. There are several free tables on each side of the lounge. We get the pleasure to choose what would feel comfortable. At the end, we settle for a table for two, with two single couches on each side. A sassy waitress is up to us but Allie asks her to give us some time. Yes, today is her or our day and if she says so, then we need some time.

"So...I thought we needed to hang out. We really do have a lot to catch up with." I say to loosen the air around us.
"I see, we surely do." I breath a sigh when she agrees with me, that we actually have a lot to catch up with. But the truth is I don't even know how to start.
"Well, we might need a drink. What shall we take?" I ask. She closes her eyes slightly in a thinking manner. This makes her look so the little four year old Allie.
"I will do what you do." Fuck. I should have known this is what she will say. Truth is, we both take two different types of whiskey, just like heaven and Earth. It is my time to cock my head on the side and think faster.
"Okay. Something light for today." I suggest or rather I resolve.

The wine is sweet and red. I know very well that she prefers white wine to the red one but fact is, white can't go down my throat. If at all we are to drink it together, then it had to be red. I am not a fun of wine just as she is. We have advanced our drinking to higher levels, all thanks to growing up without parents. We had no one to tell us not to do this or that. Well, the children homes tried but they couldn't do what a parent could.
"To our twin thing!" We touch our glasses and gulp down the contents of the glasses.

"I am not going to ask you any question...I will just tell you about myself, just about me and what I think you are." I begin. She nods with an hint of smile at the corners of her lips. This is a good start. " I am sorry for having been a dick, all this while. It is not as if I am promising to stop but one thing is, I would like you to know that I love you so much more than even Elex." Oops. The air is getting tense again and this is not what I wanted. I think I am doing this too formal than I intended.
"I love you so much and God, if at all he exists knows that." She says. If at all he exists!

"That sounds so agnostic!" I exclaim in disbelief. This reminds me of Rene. I thought she's the one one who has doubts about God but now, here is another one. Maybe there could be a third and forth one. The only thing am now sure of is, there won't be a fifth one, because I so much believe he's there although, I don't do what he asks of man.

"I know. Thank heavens now you know that you have an agnostic for a twin sister." She says. That's one secret.

We walk down the memory lane a few times. We manage to laugh over our childishness once in a while. Before we know it, the bottle is empty and the tables are filling up with people. The DJ is fine- the music isn't too loud- we can talk and get each other well.
The dance floor gets full with time and we are happy watching people.
"Care for a dance?" She asks. This draws a loud laughter from within my chest. Everybody knows I love dancing but not in this setting. I now care for a deep conversation. And I would dance of course.
Salsa. Oh heavens...
This feels like forever. I didn't know what I was missing. Life is good when one is getting on so well with the twin- especially when the twin is Allie. The moves bring us closer to each other and when it's time I hold her close in my arms,my heart goes out to her, I will never ever say mean things to her. Now I know why Coy would do anything to fight for our sister. I think sisters are just but a blessing, and they sometimes annoy the hell out of their brothers.

"Where do you get the guns from,I have being dying to ask." Her voice is calm. I hold her hand and swing her around. Man, this is why I love salsa. It makes people connect in a deeper level. After like four rounds, I take hold of her and we come to a stop. That was heavenly. At this moment I realise that I want to tell her everything, totally everything because I am sure that I can always fall back on her.

"I purchased the first gun from an old friend- he does the business. Then I decided that I needed a gun for each of you except Coy because I knew he won't agree to carry a gun always. That's how I got into a mission to get guns- expensive and powerful guns but in a cheaper way." I pause and she nods at me as she pours some wine into her glass. The second bottle.
"Then I asked the friend where he gets the guns from-and that was the first step towards my being, a...a..." I trail off out of lack of a descent word. She narrows her eyes at me then stretches her hand to mine. She holds my hand firmly, her eyes fixed into me and when she opens her mouth to say something, I cut her off. "Thug" I add.

"So..." She says. Wow, she isn't getting mad at me. I just told her that I am technically a thug and she still looks calm. She is even asking for more information. She should be yelling at me.
"Well, I am not the one that robs people but I started participating in this illegal business. That's how I am so sure to keep the four of you not wanting for anything. I am sorry." I tell her and I seriously mean it, I am sorry. I should have told her this. She doesn't say anything to that, instead she tightens her grip on my hand. For a moment, I feel some tears threatening to fall. She doesn't have to tell me that she understands me for me to feel so.

"You can always tell me anything." She says, her eyes still glued on mine.

I feel a great deal of relief engulf my chest. This has been all mine to carry and labour alone in, not as if I would ask any of my siblings to join me in it, but now that someone knows about it, it's relieving. I want to tell her again that I love her but I decide against it, maybe I could be overdoing it. Oh, I even know why she is so understanding. She isn't an angel, she just hacked our father's account and got some shit load of money in her account.

I shift my position to sit well. I want to ask her how she did it but, I feel as if we have said it all. The way we are taking down this second bottle is super. I guess it's because we are so used to hard stuff than this... We empty it again into the glasses and raise them up. We touch them again to our shared secrets. We can trust each other, or maybe I will trust her.

We are just getting on the floor for another dance when some familiar voice catches my ears. When Allie shifts to look behind us, I know that she too has heard it.
"Great." The voice had said.

A someone in a white coat pushes through the people.
"Rene." Allie says. "Yes. She must be keeping watch lest I hurt you." I say. Let her be.

We loose ourselves in another dance and at the end of it all, I wonder what it was. I know Allie more than I did few hours ago. I know that she came up with the idea of the oath because she was afraid that Father might take her, I know that she robbed father because she knows that there is nothing she would do to her. I know that She has never had a boyfriend because she doesnt feel like she can trust any of them. I know that she strongly believes in family more than she believes in love...

As we drive home, I bring father in our chat and we decide to do that which we have been postponing over the last few years... In two days.