Never Grasp Hard Enough

Chapter 6

Inanna

"Should I wear white or beige?" I put both of the dresses on my body, displaying them in front of the mirror. I tried to wear a decent dress to meet with Benjamin this evening.

Wait. "Why should I wear something good for him? This is nonsense." I threw both of the dresses onto my bed.

Then, I just grabbed the beige one and match with my simple bun.

Inanna, make it as simple as this, okay.

My motive was not to look pretty but just to take away that painting only. I should act like one.

I looked again at the mirror.

"My.. I look so dull. I should put on some more pinkish lipstick." I took my favourite lipstick and WAIT...

"Why should I put a lot of effort just to meet him?! I must be crazy." I put back the lipstick down on my dressing table.

Still standing in front of the mirror, I said to myself, "Dear Inanna, don't overthink okayy." I took back the lipstick and applied it on my lips, "You are just want to look decent so that you won't look ugly, right? Right!"

I tried to convince myself while my inner self was just there to confuse me even more with the fact that she wanted to dress as beautiful as she can just so that someone would look at her with an amusing looks.

My brain must have some short circuit tonight. Urghh.. I hate this confusing mind.

"Inanna, don't lose focus, okay. Remember, that painting. The painting. Must get it by tonight. What if I can't? No! Don't think that way. Be positive! Be positive!" I said to myself as I walked down the stairs. With a firm grip, my heart started to be filled with a burning desire to get that painting perhaps a little bit of nervousness.

Mademoiselle restaurant (6:15 p.m.)

"Is this the restaurant he mentioned this morning? Is it? Oh wait. I didn't ask for his phone number?! Myy... How can I forget to ask this morning?! So now how can I ask for confirmation?" I tried to remember back the name of the place that Benjamin had told this morning to the point that my eyebrows knitted together and my eyes were slitting.

"Herrrghh.. Inanna, you are so annoying. If I'm late, then, I will can never get that paining."

Was still condemning myself when someone was clearing their throat behind me, startling me.

I looked up instantly just to find the exact reason I came to this place.

"Oh. Benjamin! Thank goodness we meet here. I.. I actually well a kind of forgot the name of the place which you've mentioned earlier."

He was just smiling at me and leading the way into the restaurant.

My jaw dropped as soon as my eyes met the extravagant design and furnitures inside it. This is... I'm speechless.

Benjamin led us to a secluded table that was far from the sight. A bit private might I say or equally deemed as romantic I guess. It was beyond disputed that this guy who was sitting across my sit is going to bring trouble if I ever let him in into my life.

After taking both our seats, without exactly meeting his gaze, I spoke with rather a cold tone just to show how much I want him to know that I was in my serious mode while locking both my palms while elbows on the table.

"Well, to begin with, I don't think I should explain myself of this meeting right. Let us just get straight to the point right now, I want that painting back. I don't mind to pay how much you really want me to as long as the painting with me, it is more than just enough.." I met his gaze while continued "..yeah. That's it. I guess." with nodding.