Tonight I'm going to this party with my boyfriend Shawn Mendes. I'm really excited, but I get really bad anxiety around big crowds but Shawn always knows how to calm me down so I trust him to help me if I need it.
"Hey baby" Shawn said ripping me away from my thoughts, as he walked into the room
"Oh hey" I said quickly "you alright?" He asked "yea I'm fine, do we need to leave?" I said trying to hide my nervousness
"Babe I can tell you're nervous, don't be I promise I will be right by you're side all night" he promised
"Ok let's go"
15 minutes later
The second we got there I could already hear music booming through the speakers and I could tell the whole place was packed with people
I was once again yanked away from my thoughts when Shawn grabbed my hand and whispered in my ear "it'll be fine baby" I just nodded my head and started walking towards the door
When we walked in Shawn immediately said he was gonna go get drinks and he would be right back
About 5 minutes past and he still wasn't back and I could feel the sinking feeling in my stomach get worse when more people started to crowd around me.
So I decided to just go look for Shawn. It didn't take long to find him. When I did he was talking to some instagram model who was obviously flirting with him and it looked like he was flirting back
My blood was boiling
But I kept my cool and walked up to him as calmly as possible and quickly tapped him on the shoulder "hang on one second Y/N" he said not even looking at me.
He never calls me Y/N he always calls me something cute like baby, babe or Y/N/N. that made me even more angry at him.
So I did the only sane thinks to do and took the car and left him stranded there. Was it harsh to leave him there? Maybe. Did he deserve it? YES.
He promised to stay by my side because he knows how bad my anxiety is. Yet he still decided to walk away from me to talk to some bimbo.
10 minutes later I finally got home. I was not about to let him sleep in the same bed with me so I got his pillow and a blanket and put it on the couch.
Once I went back upstairs I locked the bedroom door and laid down in bed and cried. Before I knew it, I had cried myself to sleep.
SHAWN'S POV
Once I got done talking to Lisa(that's just a random name). I went back to where Y/N was. She wasn't there.So I went over to ask my friend Brian if he's seen her.
"Hey bro have you seen Y/N?" I asked when I finally found him."yea she just left and she was crying" he said with a sympathetic look. Concern and worry washed over me.
"Do you know why she was crying?" I asked now insanely panicked. "I don't know dude but I would find out if I were you" he said before walking away
Then I remembered Y/N trying to talk to me when I was talking with Lisa. Immediately guilt flooded me. I was so stupid I know how bad her anxiety is and I still flat out ignored her.
I called an uber and told him to drive as fast as possible.
Once I got home and got inside I saw the couch set up so I could sleep on it.
It was at that moment, I knew, I screwed up.
Part 2 coming tomorrow
