Shane's POV
My husband, Shawn Mendes, has been really distant lately and I'm kinda worried that he doesn't want to be with me anymore. I have to figure out what's going on because I'm 2 months pregnant and I don't want our baby to be born into a broken home
"Babe I'm home!!" I heard Shawn yell from downstairs
I quickly wiped my tears away and walked downstairs with a huge smile
"Hey baby, I made dinner" I said not looking at him because I didn't want him to see my tear stained face
"Honey what's wrong?" He asked, very concerned. Crap. He saw my face
"Nothing, I'm fine" I said trying to sound as happy as possible
"Babe no you're not. You look like you've been crying. Talk to me" he said grabbing one of my hands and using his finger to lift my head up, very gently like I was a glass doll that could shatter at any moment
"I- I- do you not love me anymore?" I struggled to find the right words as I let the tears that I had been holding back flow freely down my face
"Baby why would you even ask that? You're my everything" he said sadly
"You've just been so distant lately" I said looking away
"Baby" he sighed, looking at me "there's a reason I've been distant but it's definitely not because I don't love you. If I didn't love you we wouldn't be married and you wouldn't be pregnant with our baby boy" he said with a very sad and hurt tone in his voice
"Then why have you been distant?" I asked crossing my arms, anger now taking over my tone, but I still had a twinge of sadness. Stupid hormones.
"You might want to sit down for this" he sighed pointing to the couch
"Fine" I huffed sitting down with a sinking feeling in my stomach, terrified of what he was going to say
"Baby I just want you to know that I love you and I tried to stop this...." he trailed off, looking away letting a few tears fall down his face
"Baby whatever it is, we can get through it" I said wiping his tears away with my thumb as my anger faded at the sight of him looking so defeated
"I have to go on tour" he blurted and I suddenly felt my heart drop
"When? And how long?" I questioned
"I leave in two weeks and I'll gone be gone for 6 months" he said sounding as if he was going to cry again, but I was to shocked to comfort him
"Baby please say something" he cried, looking into my sad eyes
"What do you want me to say? That I'm happy? Because I'm not. You're gonna be gone for pretty much my whole pregnancy, Shawn. I can't do this alone" I sobbed
"Baby I don't want to leave, but I have to" he said trying to grab my hand but I jerked it away with anger running through me
"No you don't! You could have said no!! I yelled
"I-" he tried speaking but I cut him off with a statement that I never thought I would have to say
"I think it's time that you choose what means more to you. You're job or me and you're son?" I said, walking into the bedroom, locking the door and sitting on our bed
It was harsh to make him choose, but he has make this decision and I'm terrified of what he'll choose. I have only one question going through my mind at this moment and that is 'Am I fixing to lose the love of my life?'
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10 minutes passed and here I am. Sat on our bed with tears flowing freely down my face as I waited for Shawn to make his decision
Honestly I didn't think it would take this long and I'm kinda hurt that it has
Just as I was about to fall asleep I heard a knock on the bedroom door
"Baby please let me in" I heard Shawn's voice on the other side of the door,once he realized I had locked it
When I didn't open it I heard him sigh and slide down the door "fine. I'll just sit here forever then. Sad. Lonely. Cold. Hu-" "ok, just shut up and I'll let you in" I said frustrated by his whining
When I opened the door I saw Shawn fall in the doorway, his head hitting the hardwood floor. I chuckled slightly
"I'm glad my pain is funny to you" he said sarcastically, picking himself up off the floor and grabbing my hands
"I take it, you've made you're decision" I said quietly
"I have" he paused and my anxiety went through the roof "I got Andrew to cancel the tour" he finished and I immediately hugged him
"Thank you" I whispered into his chest
"Did you really think I would choose my career over you and our son?" He asked, slightly hurt
"I mean, it is you're dream" I said pulling away from the hug and looking at my feet
"Correction: it's part of my dream" he said
"What do you mean?" I asked looking up at him
"Baby, I wouldn't be where I am today if it wasn't for you. You're the one who made my dreams come true. So yes, music is my dream, but I wouldn't be able to live it without you. You and our son are my dream you, our son and all the children we're going have in the future are my dream" he said, kissing the top of my head
"Shawn that was the sweetest thing anyone has ever said to me. How did I get so insanely lucky?" I asked smiling up at him
"I ask myself the exact same thing everyday" he said pulling me into another hug and kissing top of my head again
"I love you Shane"
"I love you too Shawn"
I truly don't know how I got so lucky, but I'm sure glad that I did
