Meeting Arin (Lesbian Story)

Chapter 15

I was checking my phone every three or four minutes to see if Arin had responded. She never did. I knew she had to turn in her phone at eight, but some part of me was longing to see that text appear.

I went to a good friend of mine's house. There is nothing like showing up on your besties door step at midnight and being welcomed with open arms. That first hug, first reassurance let me know that I could do this. I could move on.

I spent the night in my besties house feeling like I truly belonged and feeling free for the first time. I couldn't sleep, but mostly it was because I was free. I don't think I've ever felt free in all my life. I felt like for the first time I didn't have to answer to anyone. I am a smart girl. I know what's best for me. I got with Joey right after I turned eighteen. We moced in soon after we started dating. I never knew how to be my own person or make my own decisions.

I went to sleep thinking about all this. Thinking about starting over. Just me and my little man. Learning about life together.

The next morning, I got up early. I dressed myself and my little one and we slipped out of my besties house before anyone got up. I left him with my parents and drove to work early. Just as I pulled into the parking lot, I got a text. "what?" it said. It was from Arin. I responded, "I left" with a huge grin on my face. I couldn't wait to see her. I imagined how excited she would be as I sat in my car playing the radio and thinking. I used to do this all the time. Come to work early and just sit in my car listening to the radio so I would have a few minutes to myself.

Arin didn't send anything else, so I thought she was probably rushing straight to work to see me. Butterflies were swarming around in my belly and I felt anxious. I needed to hold her; to feel her arms all around me.

I walked inside and began getting myself ready for the day. I heard Arin walk in before I saw her. She was in a very good mood, laughing and goofing off as she walked in. I smiled to myself hoping I was to blame for her happiness. She told me good morning with a giant grin on her face and my tummy did a flip flop. "Good morning." I said smiling.

I was rushing to get everything ready and to get Arin in a room so I could have a moment alone with her. Minutes felt like hours. Finally, I got a moment with her. Unfortunately, when that moment came it was nothing like I'd been imagining. Arin was irriated by our boss and venting. I oh-so-casually brought up Joey. Arin oh-so-smugly said, "it won't last." and just like that she had dismissed any hope I'd had of there ever being an "us".