After the rain

A separat heaven

Felix woke up with yet another headache. Blinking, feeling his crusty eyes in the process, he sat up. He was fully awake, but his body felt terribly tired. His arms were paining and his stomach growled loudly, giving him the feeling of nausea. He felt sick from hunger. "Hyung...?" he didn't know if Changbin was there, he didn't know if the elder had heard him. However, the lights from outside of the room, which shone through the widely opened door, were shadowed from a human body. Felix swallowed, pressing his eyes close to see better through his blurry view. He recognized someone he knew, but he somehow couldn't place it. Who was that person right over there? It was as if he had met him a hundred times, but he didn't know who it was. "Hyung!" He tried louder, noticing that no sound came out of his mouth. Not even when he started shouting louder and louder, feeling himself panicking.

Just then, he ripped his eyes open with a gasp, feeling his world spinning and turning in front of his eyes in an uncomfortable way. "Hey!" Felix jerked at the sudden voice, noticing that it was Changbin's. It was a dream... He was panting, feeling a layer of cold sweat covering his feverishly hot forehead. The dark-haired elder was sitting next to him, gripping him by his skinny shoulders harshly. "Are you okay?" he asked, making Felix jerk another time. He swallowed in between his heavy breathing, nodding and avoiding eye-contact. "You were screaming." Changbin's voice was softer now and comforting in some strange way. "S-sorry." He closed his eyes again, feeling his chest burning. Something felt wrong with his body. As if it didn't belong to him.

"I put some calming pills in your glass. I wanted you to sleep." 'Why?' Felix wanted to ask, but kept his mouth shut. He wasn't calm, actually, he felt at the verge of exploding. "Hey..." Changbin gently grabbed him by his chin, lifting his face up a little. Felix couldn't even move his body, it was like he was a rag doll. He could sit, but that was pretty much everything he could. And he gulped again when he met Changbin's deep, black eyes. He was so gorgeous.

Felix unconsciously started smiling when Changbin patted his head gently with his other hand, caressing down the back of his head. "I worried about you." He said in an assuring tone and Felix felt himself doing the thing he wanted to avoid the most: melting at the elder's words. Those sweet words that were directed to him. "Really?" he felt energized somehow, yet empty. Changbin laughed and nodded, standing up and taking his hands off Felix, and he immediately missed the other's attention and care. "Do you want to take a shower?"

Only now, Felix realized how clean he was. At least, clean for crawling through the whole forest and the mud and dirt. He was sweaty and felt sticky again though. "Have you... bathed me?" he shyly asked, rising his brows in confusion. "Yep, thought you'd feel better. But you're all sweaty again. And you've a fever." Changbin was smiling and it had the effect on Felix that the blondie felt attracted to him even more. Changbin cared for him. He wanted to scream, for real.

"I want that." He simply answered, stretching his arms out to give Changbin the sign to help him. Changbin smiled huffily. "You lazy..." he murmured, before he crouched down and let the blondie get swiftly onto his back, that still felt dull from carrying the kid through the forest the other day. The elder groaned underneath the pressure, that felt heavy and almost unbearable again. His muscles still ached.

"Can you stand?" Changbin asked when he let the door of the bathroom fall shut behind him. Felix felt himself getting even sweatier. "No..." he quietly said, hoping Changbin wouldn't notice the little lie.

He could stand. He had one leg after all. One, that was fine.

"Alright." Changbin said with a sigh, placing Felix beside the sink basin. The younger one's legs were loosely hanging in the air as he rested his back behind on the mirror. He didn't dare to speak, it felt as if he faced someone completely new. Felix wanted to ask Changbin why he had brought him back here and didn't let him escape. Would the elder... want him to stay? "Hyung..." he unconsciously said, making Changbin look up. "Hm?" Felix bit his lip, not knowing what to say. He kept on staring for a few moments, then Changbin took his gaze off him again, going back to his work at filling the tub and putting some bath salts into it.