Don't leave me

Kiss and tell

"Brooklyn what do I do I have an appointment today at 5:30 pm how do I go without rye knowing" I say panicked "idk I can drop you off and take care of rye" he says in a calm voice odiously trying to think of what I could do "yeah but rye needs me not you" I snap back "I am just trying I help" he says a little hurt "I'm I'm sorry I know, I am just so stressed and it's like I don't know how to function correctly" I say back trying to stay calm and not let the fact that I am tariffed slip through my voice "I am sorry andy and I am happy you told me but I mean wouldn't it be easier if you told rye?" He suggests "I CAN'T" I yell brook shifted back shocked I had yelled at him it's like I can't control what I do and it scares me if I am getting angry with brook what if I get mad at rye what am I going to do. We sit in silence and I don't blame him he knows I am most likely going to yell again I could tell he is thinking deeply about what to say next not wanting to say something that would make me mad. "Brook" I say quietly trying to keep calm and think about what exactly to say. "I never pictured that my life would go like this I pictured so much more and less I am just so overwhelmed and I can't control myself" I say trying to get him to understand I am not in full control of my actions "THAT DOESN'T MEAN YOU CAN USE ME FOR YOUR LITTLE PUNCHING BAG ANDY" he yells I was a little shocked but I know I deserved it brook even looked surprised that he did it. "Brook can you maybe take rye for a drive and give him some sleeping pills so I can go to the doctor" I ask I know that is a lot to ask he is pretty much drugging his friend. "Andy how do you have sleeping pills?" He asks looking at me with this questionable look on his face "Sometimes it's the only way I get things done so I have some for when I have to do stuff like this" I answer back "I mean I guess...it's 4:45 so you should get ready" brook says looking from his phone to me "give him the pills before we leave and then he will sleep in the car" brook says "alright" I say standing and walking back to my room when I open the door I hear the water still running. I walk to the bathroom door and open it stepping inside "hey rye I am going to have some tea want some" I ask him "yes please I will be out in like 5 minutes" rye says through the shower curtain I turn to leave tell rye says "Andy hold on come here please" I slowly turn and walk to the shower curtain a second later it opens to reveal a wet rye standing in front of me with water slowly making its way down his face water drops slowly and occasionally dripping from his hair "what is it rye" I ask his facial expressions changes and he leans in and our lips touch it felt great it's not very often that this happens but when it does it's like all of his issues leave and it's just us it's weird when ever we kiss or get a little "sexual" if you may rye gets this look in his eyes like everything is lifted for a second letting him breath for just a second. Rye pulls away and lays his head on mine "Andy I love you and I'm sorry I am such a pain you should be doing your own thing and you should be going out without me and going and doing things and most important I am sorry we can't have a normal relationship like dating relationship I want to kiss you and cuddle you but also let you go out and do your own thing and I'm so so sorry for it" my eyes close and I take a deep breath Brook was right I need to tell him but how he needs me than without thinking and with no hesitation it slips past my lips "rye I need to tell you something"