Roadtrip oneshots (boy x boy)

~ Broken ~

A/N - I wrote this on Monday and by the time I finished it was literally 00:00 so I thought I'd wait until today to post it. Enjoy x

ANDY'S POV:
I don't like going outside and doing things. I'll make plans one minute and then the next I'll want to cancel them. I thrive off of being alone in my room and doing nothing but watching tv and wishing I was asleep, but sometimes when I'm alone I feel really really lonely. Like I have no one. How does that work? I want to be alone but when I am I get sad, like really sad.

It's the same with eating. I love the taste of food, more than anything. I enjoy just sitting and eating different foods a lot. But once I've eaten that food I always regret it, like I shouldn't be eating for some reason.

If it were up to me I would stay in my room all day every day, watching tv constantly, never sleeping and switching between stuffing my face one minute and not eating for three days straight the next. The only reason I haven't completely fallen apart yet is Harvey.

He makes sure that I hang out with the boys whenever they go out unless I'm really truly not feeling up to it for some reason, and if so he stays at home with me, to make sure I'm not alone. And even when I try and force him to go with them anyway because I don't want him missing out because of me he tells me to stop my nonsense and 'shut up and sleep'.

When I can't sleep he'll tuck me in and kiss me on the forehead before slowly walking towards the door, even though he knows I'll call him back and ask him to stay. So every time he climbs under the covers with me holds me gently in his arms as if I'm the most precious thing in the world. Then he'll softly sing me to sleep and stay with me the rest of the night so he's there when I inevitably wake up from the nightmares that haunt me every night.

He makes sure I eat at meal times, even when I try my hardest to pretend I'm not hungry, and he rubs my back in soothing circles when I end up crying on the bathroom floor afterwards.

He even sacrifices seeing his own family when we get breaks because he's too scared to let me travel on my own. I feel absolutely terrible that he gives up going home just because I can't be a stable human being for two seconds but I'm eternally grateful for the lengths he goes to for me never the less.

Once, he went on tour and there was no possible way Blair would let me go with him so he stayed up all night one night to write out a schedule for all the boys to follow, outlining who had to do what for me every single day. And every night, no matter what the time difference in whatever country he was in at the time, he would fight off sleep just to FaceTime me at 11:00, to check up on me and sing me to sleep. Then once he knew I was safely dozed off, one of the boys would take my phone and continue the call with him, filling him in on how I'd been that day.

He even bought me a ring once, I remember it like it was just yesterday, not only because of the sheer beauty of the thing, but because he was in bed doing all the crying for once. I'll never forget what he said to me when he placed it on my finger, he said: 'Andy, this ring is a symbol of my never ending love for you. I know we always said we didn't need a ring to show how we feel about each other because our hearts did that already, but I know now that you'll need this ring more than ever soon. This ring symbolises eternity and hope, and I wish with every fibre of my body that when the time comes it can provide you with all the strength that you could possibly need to overcome any obstacle you face. With or without me'

It's safe to say he wasn't the only one who cried that night.

RYE'S POV:
"Andy?" I asked, while knocking on the door for no reason whatsoever because he never answers us anyway so we've all just started walking straight in. When I do invite myself in seconds later he's sitting on his bed fiddling with the ring Harvey gave him a while back. "You alright mate?"

"Harv forgot to FaceTime me last night" he replies sadly, looking up at me with his eyes wide as if I can do anything about it now.

"Oh Andy... I'm sorry. But don't forget what he said, even when he's not here" I start, signalling around the room quickly with my hands "He is in here.." I continue, pointing to his heart. Cheesy I know, but that's Harvey for ya.

I then leave Andy and go back downstairs to join the other boys in the kitchen. "He told me Harvey forgot to FaceTime him last night" I explain sadly

"Again?" Mikey asks, crossing his arms and biting his lip gently

"He used to be so outgoing" Alex chimes in "But since that day he doesn't even want to leave his room"

"The only reason he does is because he's convinced himself that Harvey's still here, telling him to leave the house and eat enough" Robbie says, standing from the sofa and joining the conversation.

"Cut him some slack" Brook shrugs " You knew today was going to be hard for him, it always is. It's been 3 years now"

"I miss him" Jack adds, lip trembling slightly when he's finished

"Me too" Andy whispers shakily from the doorway, where he's seemingly been the whole time