🌹Petals & Papers 📃

55.

Before the night end...

They finally walk past by that dark spot of the street, Junhoe also finally calmed himself down from laughing. Rosé should be annoyed by him right now because he clowned her earlier but she just can't. God knows how much she wanted to hear that laugh again.

Junhoe took a deep breath. They're close to Rosé's apartment when both of them walk slowly, not wanting to end the night yet.

When they're already in front of the building, they both stop.

"We're here." Rosé said then face Junhoe who's looking up the building on their right side and then he looks at her.

"We're here." He repeated.

"Thanks for walking me home tonight."

Junhoe nods at her, "No big deal. It's cold, you should go inside."

Rosé also nods at him before she turn around and started to walk towards the building. Both their minds and hearts are conflict. Both were also holding themselves back.

Rosé's pace became slower, thinking the possibilities that what would happen if she let her feelings win. What if Lisa's right? What if he decided to stay once he knew about what she really feel? But what scares her the most is...if Junhoe's mind is already fixed that even her feelings for him wouldn't change his mind anymore. It would hurt her for sure.

But it is better to try than to regret it right? It's now or never so Rosé stopped her pace but before she could turn around, Junhoe speak up.

"Before you go inside, can I tell you something?"

Rosé turn around to face him. "Actually, I also have something to tell you. But okay, you go first." She said, standing still.

"Can I stand closer to you?"

She even looked around before she look back to Junhoe, "Okay? Why though? Is it too private?" She chuckled just trying to calm her racing heart when Junhoe starts walking towards her until he's already standing in front of her.

"I...I don't have any idea what I'm doing right now." He started. He sighed then continue, "and I don't really have any plans to feel it. Heck, I don't even know what this means and how should I make this disappear..."

Rosé's heart started to beat faster again. Guess Junhoe's really be the reason if she'll have a heart desease. He always make her heart race faster than it's normal beat and she doesn't know if it's good or a bad thing. Maybe both.

"But I guess, you can't make something disappear if it's real."

"W-What are you saying?" She said.

Junhoe looked deep down straight to her eyes and she's trying to make her knees stronger because she feels her knees will become jelly anytime soon.

"I think I like you. Ah no. I like you. This might sound gay, but you make me feel things I never felt before. You make me truly happy and...free."

Junhoe shouldn't tell her that. He actually have no plans to tell her that. He doesn't want any attachments because he's temporary but what couldn't hold him back was the thought of being with her. He wants to be with her.

He wants to stay with her atleast for the remaining days that is left before April ends.