🌹Petals & Papers 📃

73.

Guess Rosé can't do anything but to enjoy every minute with him?

They travel back home. Rosé sat by the window in the bus while Junhoe's sat beside her. Both didn't talked. After what Junhoe told her, she choose not to talk.

She respect his decisions but she can't help but to feel hurt. She wanted to say more but she doesn't want to talk when she can't filter or think of the things she wanted to say properly. She's really bad at expressing herself through words and she's scared that it might also hurt Junhoe.

The whole bus ride was awkwardly silent until they arrived on their bus stop.

"Hey, you don't have to walk me home tonight. Your apartment is nearer here so you can take a rest now." Rosé said while they're walking in the street.

The warm light from the lamp posts around makes the ambiance gloomier. The shops are closed already and the other shops are preparing to close.

"No. I should walk you home."

Rosé just nod and continue walking, Junhoe silently followed her. Crickets were literally heard between them, a couple of sigh was even being heard from Rosé while her eyes is wandering around, looking something interesting to divert her own mind from things that bugging her after what happened earlier.

Junhoe stopped walking, watching her back slowly walking away from him. After a minute, she felt that something's off. She can't feel Junhoe's presence anymore so she stopped and turn around just to see Junhoe standing 20 steps away from her so she walked back to him.

"I'm sorry." That's the first thing that Junhoe said when she finally stopped in front of him.

"Huh? For what?" She asked with a creased forehead.

"Because I can't make you a promise that I'll stay here with you...I...I just can't---"

"It's okay. I know. I understand."

Lies. She honestly don't understand at all. Though she tried but everytime she thinks about it, it's just make it more complicated. He's being abused by his father and he ran away from his hometown because he felt being suffocated there and now April's about to end and yet he still choose to go back there.

She just can't understand at all but what can she do? It's his decision and it seems that everything's final and she can't think anything to stop him.

Rosé bite her inside of her lower lips and force a smile. Junhoe heaved a deep sigh.

"I just don't want you to get hurt again." She confessed with a small voice after a moment of silence between them.