The Woman Dividing |GagaxCooper

For a split second

                                Stefani
                *After the filming of ASIB*
                          (Edited 5.20.19)

   I have this problem that once I do something huge or meet someone absolutely amazing I can't let go. For instance: A million reasons I still have all the hats, The super bowl I've rewatched and re-enacted a billion times, Ally Maine... She's the me deep inside I've been looking for. All of these characters I've pulled out deep within my soul I've been having the hardest time leaving them in their books. Those stories have ended and it is time to move on.

I think the hardest part of letting go of Ally is letting go of Jackson. The real Jackson as in letting go of Bradley Cooper. Yes, I'll see him for the next year and a half going on podcast and interviews talking about the movie and singing the song Shallow, but it won't be the same. Sooner or later I will have to let go of him as well so he can move on with his life and his... Irina.

I never felt more chemistry in a human being in all 10+ years of me doing the one thing I am passionate and good at. There's something with Bradley Cooper that I can't put a finger on.

It's 12.20pm and I haven't moved from my lonely king sized bed that I used to share with all of my ex-lovers when their time was with me. This time around my bed was a beautiful white, blue, and gold comforter with a black wooden bed frame.

It was a gift from a friend back in 2016 when Taylor Kinney and I broke off our engagement. I never used it due to the fear of remembering all of our special moments, but now it's a vibe so I decided to pull it out.

I looked back at the clock seeing that a minute passed on this beautiful, sunny, and warm Sunday afternoon. I should probably get dressed and invite some friends over for brunch or dinner since on Sunday's I've asked no assistants or people who basically run my life while I am doing absolutely nothing to leave me the fuck alone in the nicest way possible.

I sat up in bed unplugging my phone from its hot pink charger. Then I do my usual stare into the large mirror that takes up a full wall in my bedroom. I look myself in the eyes and tell myself how thankful I am for waking up another morning and being able to live a life this amazing. For a split second, I wish I was somewhere else where I can be normal again, but then I get angry at myself for being an ungrateful bitch. I say sorry to myself and get up to go to the bathroom.

While I'm brushing my teeth my phone buzzes twice signifying I got a text. It was from Bradley.

I'm coming over. I want coffee.
                                                  -BC

Hi Bradley! So good to hear from you :) I would love to get coffee!! Text me a time and I'll meet you there 👍 -Lady

And that was that. I got no text back which was a bit concerning, but I knew it meant he's probably doing something important.

I go into my closet and pull out a white Bralette with cute flower designs, pairing it with a see-through pink blouse, and white jean shorts. When I take one last look in the mirror before leaving my bedroom I hear a knock come from my extremely tall wooden front doors. I wait a second for one of my assistants to open it before I remember I'm home alone on Sundays.

I skip down the stairs with Gustavo, Asia, and Koji following closely behind.

When I come to the door I open it to Bradley standing with his back facing me. He hasn't shaved in a while making him look more like Jackson than himself.