ETHMA

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‼️MATURE LANGUAGE IS USED‼️

ethan's pov

"ethan we have to leave for the airport." grayson yells. "calm the fuck down!" i fire back. "ethan! now!" grayson yells extremely impatiently. i roll my eyes and grab my phone, my backpack, and my suitcase and roll it out to the car.

"nice to see you." grayson applauds me as i walk over to the car. "fuck off." i say to him while doing the death stare and flipping him off. "ethan don't be a shit head today, i don't have the energy for it." grayson stops me. "fine. sorry." i give in. after i hop into the very back row of the car. i sit down next to emma. she smiles at me. i smile back.

as soon as i sat down i intertwine emma and i's fingers and rub the back of her small hand with my thumb. i kiss her hand a few times. "hey guys!" vanessa says as she sits down in the row in front of us. "hi!" emma smiles back at vanessa.

finally grayson gets into the car, he sits next to vanessa. "to LAX. thanks." grayson tells the driver. he is really stressed out. i can tell by the way he is sitting. as we start driving and the car gets dark we all just sit in there and chill. i stick an airpod in emma's ear and one in mine. we both listen to music and chill.

i glance up at grayson and nessa. they are holding hands and vanessa is comforting grayson. awww that's cute. i'm glad gray has someone that is making him happy.

i look over at emma. she is leaning her head on my left shoulder. she is sleeping. i rub my thumb along her knuckles. i look down at our hands that were still connected. i kiss her head and lay my head down on hers.

"ethan. emma. get up, we're at the airport." grayson shakes emma and i awake. i wake up and look outside the window and see the airport. "em." i wake her up. "we're here love." she looks out the window and then looks back at me and smiles. i mouth to her. "i love you." she smiles and looks down.

"let's go." we both hop of out of the van and thank the driver. we grab our luggage out of the back. "we need to go to check in." grayson and vanessa look for our checkin desk. they are so responsible, emma and i just stand there doing nothing.

emma starts to shiver. i hold my arms out for her to hug me. she walks into my chest. i wrap my arms around her. she stands there warm in my arms. "guys, we need to go to desk D10." vanessa tells emma and i. we both back away from our hug and i hand her my sweatshirt to wear to stay warm. then we gather all of our bags and walk to check in.

"hi." i hand my passport to the check in guy. "thank you." he looks at me then at my passport. he prints out my boarding pass and checks in my bag. "thanks" i smile at him as i walk over to the side and wait for emma. gray and nessa already went through.

i pull out my phone and record. "hey guys its ethan and grayson. so we will not be posting for quite awhile. we are sorry, as some of you know our father has passed away and now we are heading back to new jersey to be with them. so please respect our decision to take a break. thanks. bye, we love you guys." i stop recording and post that on my twitter.

"let's go." emma walks over and points to security. the line is moving fast, thank goodness. i feel like i'm going to have a mental breakdown. we walk through the line and we don't have to wait, thank goodness.

"thanks." i smile at the tsa people as i walk away. emma is waiting for me up ahead. "hey you okay?" she asks me as she grabs my hand. "no. i feel like i'm going to have a mental breakdown. can we go somewhere private?" i ask emma. she looks around. there. she finds a little seating area that is in a little nook. no one is sitting there.

as soon as emma and i sit down. i loose it, all of my emotions and feelings take over. i cry into emma's shoulder. i can't believe he is gone. he was my person. he was doing so well though. why did such a good man have to go. "i miss him." i mumble as emma holds me tighter. "i know love, he is in a better place."

i try to stop myself from crying but i fail. "emma?" i look up at her with my puffy eyes. "yes e?" she wipes a tear from my cheek. "do you think he misses gray and i?" i cry even harder than before. "ethan, babe. look up at me." emma puts her hand on my chin. she pushes my face up so i will look up at her. "baby, he misses you and gray and cameron more than you will ever know. and he misses your mom more than words." emma comforts me.

"ethan." i hear gray pat my shoulder. i look away from him. i can't look at him. i can't cry to him, i'm suppose to be strong for him. i wipe away my tears. i face back towards grayson. "it's okay to cry." he reassures me.

i can't cry in front of grayson. mom told me that i needed to be strong for gray. "i'm fine." gray sighs at me. "okay, i understand i'm going to get food. text me if you need me." him and vanessa walk away.

"ethan. you can cry in front of grayson." emma tells me. "i know." i snapped at her. "hey. ethan. look. you are in pain and i understand that but you can't hold in all of your emotions. it's okay to show emotion, it's a natural human thing. now i need coffee." emma makes me laugh.

"see love. that's all i wanted from you. a smile. oh and possibly a laugh. and coffee. let's go!" emma smiles at me. "fine." emma pulls me up onto my feet. she connects our hands as we walk over to small cafe in the airport.

"hi can i get a large iced coffee with almond milk and a vanilla latte thank you." emma sneakily passes her card to the cashier. "babyyyy." i make a cute ugly face at her. she squeezes my face together by placing 4 fingers on my left side of my face and her thumb on the right side of my face.

i pout at her. "name please?" the order asks emma and i look at one another then at the cashier. "ethma, e-t-h-m-a. thanks." the cashier smiles at us and writes down our name. then starts making the drinks.

emma and i go and stand over at the waiting desk for our drinks to be done. i lean up against the counter waiting. emma walks up in between my legs and hugs me around my chest. i wrap my arms around her as well. "i love you." i move her hair off of her face. "i love you too e." she smiles up at me. gosh she is so fucking perfect.

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hey oceans🌊!!

i am extremely sorry that i have been soooo inactive. these few weeks have been really busy with school and events. so i will try to update more!! next week i go on holiday so i will try to post a bit more xxx

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