Tears in Crimson Ink

★My favorite catastrophe

To the man I never had,

I wish you are okay now to the place where you are, to the place you really belong-- in her arms.
I wish our world will collide once more, not to continue what we had before but for me to say the words I should have said long time ago.
I love you.
I really do and I still do even if you are not with me, even though I know you don't love me too.
I know you are happy with the person you love, to the person I will never be, but I am still hoping that you could still fix the broken pieces of my heart that remained broken up until now.
I am not asking for your love anymore, but that doesn't mean that my love for you is already gone. I just want our "never almost a love story" to have a closure.
I want to finally let you go with all the memories that we had, all the laughter that we shared, and all the pain you gave to me, but that doesn't include the feelings I have in you.
Always remember that there's this girl that loves you unconditionally, a girl that treated you as her world even if you are treating her as a no one.
Thank you for crossing path with me, I am glad that I met a guy like you. It's just sad that I need to live another chapter of my life without you, maybe you are bound just to meet me and to teach me a lesson but not to stay with me.

I miss you.
I miss the way you laugh, the way you speak and the way my stomach feels like it was full of butterflies every time our eyes met.
I miss the old times, but I can't do anything but just to miss it.... to miss you.

Baby, let's meet again in our next life and I hope, things will not go the way we are now today.
I miss you and I will forever love you... from afar.

We may not had a happily ever after but atleast we had a once upon a time. That I had once met a man that became my temporary salvation and my permanent destruction. I will let go everything about you even if it means I have to dance together with the wind, continue following the flow of river alone, and I will walk across the road you are walking. Our story will be my favorite catastrophe.