Tears in Crimson Ink

★My Living fantasy

June 2, 2015. Around 1 in the afternoon. An angel has fallen. It was the first day my world stops, figuratively. The first time our eyes met is also the first time I saw the stars in broad daylight. That was also the day my heart started beating rapidly like it will fall out of my ribcage. The day I gave my heart to you.

Everything was so magical, you; walking like a Prince in a grandiose pathway, while me, the princess waiting for her knight to take her hand. Sadly, it was just for me, because in reality, you are still a prince but the difference was, I am a no one.

Meeting you that day changed the whole me, co'z you completed me. Months passes by and I fell for you even more. I fell in the most hardest way that getting up is impossible. Falling for you feels like falling in a deep hole, constantly.

Year 2017, around the end of march..... you left. I was so shock and broken when someone told me that you're transfering in Manila, it was also June that time, the month we met. We're in Grade 10 level when you decided to transfer. I can't still process everything. It was so sudden that it makes my mind hang for awhile. Every morning of that month, I'm unconciously waiting for you in that same pathway hoping that you are one of those students walking that time, but then reality slapped me real hard... That no matter what I do, no matter how long I stand there, you will never gonna show up again.

It was so hard to accept. It was so painful realizing that I was just one of the extras in the love story I thought you and I are the main cast. Despite of that realization, despite of the pain, I stand still, unmoved; waiting for you in the place where it all started while constantly falling so deeper in love with you.

June 2, 2019, the angel keeps on falling. Today, it is the fourth year since the day I met you, the day I fell in love with you. Who would have thought that this feelings I have for you will last longer than what I've expected. I didn't know that I can love you in this extent. Four years of pain and happiness. Four years of one sided love.

June 2019, I'm finally in my almost. I'm now almost over you. I'm looking forward to the day that I can finally say "I'm over you".