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...Weeks later
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Her P.O.V

These past few weeks have been really good, instead of focusing on things that don't matter, I've managed to put myself first.

Focusing on me, my art, work...just putting more time in the things I've since started to ignore, or push aside.

I didn't realize how much I missed them all, though. I feel much more content in being myself, and being with just myself. When I first laid eyes on Grayson, I instantly felt the want to be in a relationship. Which is odd, but our minds go wild over someone we find attractive. Or mysterious, we start to paint a picture in our minds of what a perfect world it would be.

We see them as perfection, so the world we create seems to have no flaws...that's how you know it's all really just a fantasy. Because it's just not possible to live without something going wrong, even if it may not affect you.

Anyway...I've been working on this art piece, and it's taken up a lot of the past few weeks. I'd been planning it for a while now, but I was always too afraid to jump into it because I really liked the idea. I didn't want to start and it not turn out how I wanted it, because I knew then, I wouldn't ever try again.

I decided to take it slow, and it's going well so far. It's not even nearly close to being done, but that's alright, as long as it turns out perfect.

The downside to being so caught up in your art work, though, is that you put it over sleep.

I've went countless nights without sleep, just so I could work on it. And to say I was exhausted was an understatement. I'd been going to that same Starbucks very occasionally, just for your basic coffee. It's been a great help so far.

And although it may seem like I've been going there to see a special someone, that is far from the truth. It's just the closest one to my apartment, which is convenient. I wouldn't walk an extra ten blocks just to avoid him, when I could cross the street, which is where it is.

I did do something I will probably end up regretting, though. I checked up on his Instagram again...only because, it's been a while, and I wanted to see how him and his girlfriend were doing.

But, I was shocked when the photo of them holding hands wasn't up anymore. I thought maybe he just decided to take it down? But it seemed like it was more than just that. Because his bio followed with,
"Maybe one day, I'll be what you need."

It kinda stuck with me...he seemed so happy in the post, and now to see she might've been the one to break his heart, really hurts me. Not as much as it would've, though. I just have that feeling, when someone you used to care about gets hurt.

Even though you don't keep in touch with them anymore, you still want the best for them, even in my case. Where you know absolutely nothing about them.

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8:46pm

I decided to make a pit stop at Starbucks, I could tell this was going to be another long night, I had a lot of plans for my art piece and I couldn't just ignore the art high I was on.

As I walked in, I was surprised to see it was still quite packed. It being later in the night. But I guess this isn't too late for the city, which seems to come alive at night.