Chapters of Peoms

Hearing Things

I wake up one day and did the usual....
Shower, dress, eat, clean, work out...
This time tho...A friend came over....
He came over after I had cleaned....
We talked and laughed and drink....
I knew....
The minute he walked in.....
Something was wrong...
He didn't say anything....
Then three hours....
"Hey listen...." he said...
I looked at him waiting for his reply....
"What would you do if I left you?..."
I asked what he had meant
He said"If I left for no reason one day"
My eyes become clouded with tears
I-i-i
I keep repeating "I"
It was like  I was a broken record....
He sat there as I was crying....
"I might leave soon without a goodbye"
He hesitated in the middle
I looked at him and asked to where
He sighed....
As if he already knew me asking that
He replied "Don't worry about it"
He said it so quick and coldly...
He knew what I was gonna say...
I heard him say under his breath...
"You won't ever need to worry again"
I didn't say anything I just sat there...
After a few minutes I replied to it...
"I will be....
"I would be depressed and be worry I would be looking for you all over you are basically my little brother we grew up together and are with each other no matter what.....if you leave I will to....I would follow you....if you leave I didn't do my job to protect you....."
He looked at me with a painful look....
He smiled sadly and replied in tears....
"I love you...You can't go with me..."
I knew where he was going then....
My eyes widen & I cried hugging him
His eyes in pain he whispered...
While crying.....
He said whispering....
"Everyone is driving me crazy I want to kill myself to get way from them...."
I cried more and hugged him tighter
He hugged me tight and whispered
"I'm so sorry I love you so much...."
I scream and cry saying
"Don't leave me please!!"
He smiled sadly and kissed me.....
He killed himself a week later....
He left a voice message saying
"I love you so much I don't want to leave you but...I'm so sorry for everything my true love....please don't join me not by the way I went...I love you night..."