The Boss

Chapter 35

Katrin's POV

Kris had been gone for a week now. I have called her nonstop but it seems that she had blocked my number. Terry is still treating me like shit while my father has been busy a whole lot lately. Andy is with his grandparents and Anne is being a handful.

Carl had been trying to talk to me, he had called and even tried going to my work but I told my security to never let him in and also I have hired more security for the house just to make sure he will not bother my family.

I was so lost on my thoughts that I didn't hear Terry entering my office.

"Here are the papers that need your signature and remarks, Ma'am," she said with so much politeness it sounds weird.

"Terry please quit with all the politeness," I said getting tired.

"You're my boss Ma'am, it's only right that I address you with respect" she continued her demeanor.

"Terry please, you're my best friend my only friend" I said pleading with her.

"I have forgotten that I have a best friend who cheats and still acts like the victim" she said with venom.

"I'm not acting like the victim here and I'm not waiting for anyone's pity on me, all I want is my friend back. I know what I have done is beyond repair and unforgivable but I was lost, I was overwhelmed with everything, with being a mother, a wife, and a businesswoman and the guilt of keeping my marriage a secret is all eating me up." I said crying.

"If it was too much for you could have gone to me Katrin, I'm your best friend, I'm always here ready to listen and hear all your rants about life. You could have cursed, swore or shouted at me because you're tired but you should have not gone and sleep around and ruin your family " she replied also crying.

"I know everything that I have done is bullshit and I can't and will never justify nor defend myself from anything because it's all my fault for falling into Carl's trap but you should believe me when I say that I'm so sorry for everything that I have done." I said sobbing now.

"I can't right now Kat, I can't accept your apology when in the first place it wasn't me that you have cheated on. Maybe when my emotions are all settled I could find it in my heart to forgive and be friends with you again but for now, you're nothing more than my boss" she said wiping her tears and walking out but before she could completely exit she stop and added.

"Also I hope the guilt of ruining your perfect family and the possibility of the kids having divorce parents lets you sleep at night. Good day, Ma'am!" she left me there crying.

Everything that she said was right I'm not only a cheater but I'm also a home wrecker, I ruined my own family, the family that I work so hard to build and now I'm losing the person who loved me for me all flaws and imperfection I have. 

I never thought I could be miserable and make stupid decisions in life. I was always sure of everything and I always do the right and only the right thing. What have I done to myself? I'm slowly losing everything that I value more than anything in life and now I'm here wallowing in self-pity and stupidy.

I have to fix this and get my family back together. I have to get Kris back here as soon as possible, we can't keep running away from our problems. I know she needed time but  I need here, I need to see her, to talk to her and tell her that I'll do just anything to have another chance at her at our family.

Picking my self up from the floor, I tried to fix my make-up and my clothes that seem to be bigger than usual. I haven't eaten properly since everything blowed-up nor I have gotten enough sleep. The only things that fuel me are my kids and the thought of maybe one day getting my family back.