Conversations With Myself

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what if i were different?
if i told you i was something you didn't assume i was, would you still love me the same as you do today?

would you still hold my hand as i walked down the aisle when i found someone to marry, regardless of gender
would you tell me that i was just "going through a phase"
or tell me to "pick a side"
cause you can't go both ways, that's just not right

would you understand that it's hard
and for the longest i tried
sitting back in my room
making myself deny and deny

but do you realize that i've lied for the longest
keeping this from you has been eating me up inside and do you understand
that this had to be apart of Gods plan
and if it wasn't I would not be feeling for a woman the same you do for your man
i've told you before and i'll tell you again
my sexuality should not be a sin
because love was not my decision
if it was my choice?
i wouldn't put myself through the pain.

so if you love me, then accept who i am.