First Love | PJM ✓

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Once you finally finished in the restroom you walk downstairs to see everyone laughing,smiling and talking to eachother.

Your eyes make their way over to the couch and see Jimin with a straight face just staring down at the zipper of his jeans.

That makes you shrug and go to cross him and sit down next to Taehyung. But apparently Jimin had something different in mind because as soon as you stepped two steps across from him he pulled your hand into his then literally threw your body onto his.

"I- hyung" you whine.

He turns your body around to him, so that you were straddling him.

"Hey y/n" he says , the corner of his mouth turned up.

"Hi Jimin hyung." You say smiling at him.

"Let's go upstairs eh?" He asked.

You nodded. He smiles at you then goes to peck your lips but you quickly move making him fall into your neck.

"What was that?" He asks pulling back, his brows snapped together.

"I'm sorry but uh-" you look over at Jungkook sitting at the dining table with seokjin and Yoongi playing cards. "I didn't tell Jungkook hyung what happened with us"

"Is it any of his business?" Jimin asks rolling his eyes.

"it-"

"Whatever. It's okay let's just go upstairs. I need to talk to you." He says. He stands with you still on him and he walks up the stairs as he had your legs curled around his waist.

Once in his room he throws you on the bed softly and falls next to you.

You both were now laid like two l's. You next to him and you both looking up at the ceiling.

"Okay so , I told you to come up here for a reason." He chuckles, probably trying to clear the bit of awkward air that was spreading throughout the room.

"I wanted to talk to you, because um i know how you are. And I u-um know how you get uh attached to someone pretty quickly." Jimin says stuttering.

You snap your head over at him then quickly look back to the ceiling with a confused look.

"What do you mean I get attached?"

"You know , like you get really emotionally connected to someone when they do som-"

"Why are you telling me this Jimin, I already know that."

You hear him inhale and exhale heavily, not to long before he was talking again.

"I just want to say that um, I don't think this would work out."

As Jimin said that , you squeezed your eyes shut.

You wanted it to not be true. The fact that he was saying this. It's only one thing he could be talking about and you knew he was talking about having a real relationship with him.

"Like you and me? No right? We're best friends.....we can't break that bond. It'd be weird."

Yes that's exactly what he was talking about.

"You hear me right? It would be weird?"

You swallow wishing your hardest that your voice wouldn't sound shaky when you spoke.

"Yeah hyung , that'd be really weird." You say.

"Oh wow, I'm glad you agree with me." He says as if it was a relief.

Not if.

It was a relief to him.

But definitely not to you.

"I know you know how I am. You know I wouldn't be able to stay committed to you anyways. Not even if I promised."

That shit hurted.

You definitely thought that since you and Jimin were best friends he would try?
At least to make you happy? To make him happy?

Did he not like you that much?

"B-but Jimin I thought- , I thought you liked the kiss?" You stumble.

He sits up on the bed and looks at you. He probably noticed the glossiness of your eyes the reason why his expression became worried.

"Are you okay? Why are you-"

"I'm fine, just answer my question" you say then sit up along with him.

"I did like it but remember I said we were special best friends?" You nod.

"Special best friends is a relationship, we just kiss and stuff but we're not boyfriend and boyfriend and we keep it a secret." He says.

"I don't want to be special best friends" you state.

"Well like I said , I don't think I can have any other relationship with you other than that or just plain best friends." He says like it's nothing. You stand and look at him before just walking out.

You bite your lip and turn walking back to the door to see him still sitting, jaw slightly dropped.

"By the way I'm not fucking stupid. I know when someone is using the other, asshole." You then walk downstairs, and while walking you feel the tears start to roll down your cheeks.

Were you being dramatic?

You've never been in this situation before so you didn't know.

You walk straight towards the door once downstairs. You hear the calls of your name but you completely ignore them.

Once outside on the concrete you take off running to wherever your legs were going to take you.

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Next-update, double update? Yay or nay.