Q U E E N ( Tchalla Love Story )

H E A V Y

        My eyes fluttered open. The sun was just beginning to rise. I looked to my right to see N'jadka has left. I peeled the covers off of me, slipping out of the bed. Almost instantly I felt nauseous . I quickly ran into the bathroom and vomited in the toilet. I wiped my mouth. I can't believe I'm actually with child. And the soon to be father of this child, heart is evil. I quickly stood up from the floor. I looked in the mirror. I looked unkept. My hair was a curly mess and skin did not glow the same. I brushed my teeth riding myself of the awful taste I had in my mouth. Just then, I heard the doors to our chambers open and slam shut. My eyes grew big. I knew exactly who that was that has entered. "Nourobese!" I heard a deep voice call. I didn't respond. I just opened the bathroom doors, making my way towards him. And there he stood. Shirtless with a mustard colored cardigan that be belonged to my dear T'challa. "Yes?" I replied causing him to turn around and face me. I could tell by the expression on his face that he was upset. Very upset. He swiftly walked up to me. I stepped back a little avoiding eye contact. He grabbed my chin making me stare in his eyes.
"I overheard some handmaidens talking to each other." He said as he moved his hand from my chin to my face.
"They mentioned an heir to the throne, they mentioned how that I, the fucking King, don't know that he has an heir to the throne!" He gritted through his teeth. He held my face tighter. Almost digging his nails in my skin. My heart dropped. He wasn't supposed to know or find out. I wanted to rid myself of this child before he could ever find out. Tears instantly welled up in my eyes. "Three weeks I believe." He said calmly as he pushed my face away from his. Something in me was fed. He walked away from me. "I don't want this child. I will rid myself of it! No child of yours belong in this world!" I cried out. He quickly turned around. "You don't deserve this child." I continued. He walked up to me what looked like tears in his eyes. Anger or sadness. Next thing I know, I felt a sting on the right side of my cheek. "Get dressed we have to take care of business." He said. He walked out and soon my handmaidens walked in. They slipped my night wear off my body putting me in a bath.
By the time they were done with me, my curly mess of hair was pulled into a low ponytail and my body was dressed in an African print mermaid styled dress. I heard a knock on the door and I nodded at my handmaiden telling her to open it. W'kabi came in, walking towards me. He bowed and then the strangest thing happened, W'kabi eyes took in my form a bit. He stood upright and began to speak. "My queen, King N'Jadaka wanted me to help you with making child space arrangements." I looked at him, staring directly in his eyes. "W'kabi, my brother. I won't be keeping this child and you should know why." I spoke softly but stern. He looked at me in disbelief yet as if he understood. He was shocked that I planned on not keeping my child due to my spiritual beliefs. "Yes my Queen." He nodded. I grabbed his hand before he could walk away which caused him to look directly at me. I grabbed the side of his face bringing him closer to me. "I'm suffering W'kabi. Don't you see? Without T'challa I'm nothing. I can't live like this anymore. Please. Help me W'kabi. I need to contact the Jabari tribe. And I need your help." I whispered. I pulled away from our closeness. He looked me directly In my eyes and spoke. "Meet me by the forests entrance as soon as the moon is at its highest point Nouro." I nodded. "Thank you." I whispered to him. He nodded and turned around leaving out of my chambers.

         I was done with the final touches of this look. I heard the doors open and N'Jadaka walked in quickly. "Are you ready?" I nodded never looking at him. He grabbed my hand and walked us out of chambers toward the royal meeting room. No one had seen me in months. I saw people heads turn my way in disbelief. I did not look the same. What battered woman does? The princess they knew before, that was vibrant and happy as long as T'Challa was by my side, Is no more. It broke my heart just as much as theirs did when they saw me. The double doors to the royal meeting rooms opened and all the tribal leaders stood for us. Their eyes spoke before their mouths could. It's okay, they didn't need to. My heart sunk by their expressions. I could cry. They weren't wrong. I wore makeup that I never wore before to cover up the bruises N'Jadaka caused. I had a scar on the side of my face. I wasn't beautiful anymore. We sat down and N'Jadaka nodded for the rest to sit. N'Jadaka spoke. "An heir to the throne is expected." Everyone looked at me and I looked away and down. "All meetings from now on will include the preparation of the future heir to the throne." He finished. Everyone nodded. The meeting went on about ideas I was well versed in but couldn't comment on.

Hours passed and the meeting was over. N'Jadaka and I left hand in hand. We quickly walked towards our sleeping chambers and he opened the door swiftly slamming it shut. He grabbed the back of my neck and slammed me into the wall. He kissed my shoulder and back while quickly turning me around. My body froze like it always did. He grabbed my face forcing me too look into his eyes. His hands was on my waist. Pulling my body toward his. "Take this off." He growled. I nodded in hesitation. I turned around so that my back could face him. I moved my long ponytail to the side and he unzipped my dress. I slowly turned around facing him again. I grabbed the sides of my dress, pulling it down, slipping it off my body slowly. My breasts were exposed and I quickly covered them up. I looked down. He grabbed my face causing me to look at him. " I want you to crawl." He growled at me. Gritting his teeth. I pulled my face out of his hands. "No!" I said. He grabbed ponytail and yanked Me to the ground. Having me on all fours. "When I say do something you fucking do it!" He yelled. He moved back towards our bed. "Now crawl." He gritted. I sat up, sitting on my knees and covering my adornments. I shook my head no. He kicked me in my face. I yelled out in agony and pain and I fell over. Blood dropped from nose. Tears fell from my eyes. "Now fucking crawl." He yelled at me. My body shook. I began to crawl slowly towards him. "Look at me." He said. I slowly planted my eyes on his face. He had a smirk.
I continued to crawl to him until I was on all fours infront of him. He lifted his feet towards my mouth. "Kiss my feet." He whispered. I pecked them. "Good girl." He smirked. He picked me up off the floor. And on thing left to another. None of which I wanted to happen.

I laid almost lifeless in his arms as our encounter ended and he was fast asleep. His arms was around my body pulling me in close. A place where I didn't want to be. I waited and waited. Staring outside of our large windows waiting for the moon to reach its highest peak. My heart was beating out of my chest as hope and fear sat in my heart. And there it was, the moon. Sitting at the highest point almost as if it was telling me from mouth this was my moment. My escape.
I slowly moved out of N'Jadaka arms until he grabbed me closer. "Where are you going?" He asked sternly. His deep groggy voice echoed the room. "I'm going to the bathroom." I said softly. He let go of my arm and turner over getting more comfortable. I breathed out quietly. And quickly got up and and almost ran into the bathroom. Not before grabbing a blanket and my night gown. I slipped the gown on and placed the blanket over my shoulders. I slipped on my Sandals. Before walking out I took one last look at my self. Dried blood on my nose, a busted lip and a black eye. I could cry at my appearance. But I need to leave now!

I tiptoed out of the bathroom, leaving the light on but shutting the door. I tip toed towards the door. Slowly cracking it and slipping out . I slowly closed it. I took off. Running and never looking back. Good thing I know this castle like the back of my hand. I decided to take the back exit. I wanted to sneak past everyone. And I ran and ran. I busted through the back doors. And i felt the warm outside hit my skin. And my legs did not stop. Some of the guards stared at me and kept going on with their conversation. I ran for what felt like 30 minutes and I thats when I saw W'kabi standing there. Waiting. He saw me running towards him and I ran into his arms. He was the only thing that was normal to me these days. He was the only thing that was familiar to me. I wrapped my arms around his neck. And he held me tight as well. We let go. And his eyes went directly towards my face and the bruises on it. He pulled me into another huh. "Come on we have to move quickly." He whispered
He grabbed my hand. "Nouro, take this." he gave me a blanket and food. "You know the quickest way to the Jabari right?" I nodded my head yes. "You have to get there before day light." He whispered.
I pulled him into another hug, shedding a few tears.
"Thank you W'kabi." I whispered. I let go.
"Be careful now go." He said.

And like that, I was off.