You Said Always (re-editing chapters)

Chapter 12 ''I Broke My Promise Of Always''

NIALL'S POV

She left me for the second time.

I dont blame her.

But i bet shes with him.

That Ansel guy is probably feeding her bullshit.

He will break her.

Or whats left of her from me...

Why didnt i listen to her that night about Lizzy?!

Because Niall your stupid thats why.

I want to hurt myself like i hurt her.

I wont cut.

Nor kill myself even though i love her.

But she wouldnt miss me...

DANI'S POV

I cant belive myself .

I left him.

But he broke me.

My mind is telling me hes gonna hurt himself.

He wouldnt do that over me though.

He has Lizzy.

And all the other sluts in our school that he will gladly fuck.

He isnt sorry.

I take it back.

Im glad i left.

He was never sorry for hurting me! This is just a game hes playing. He wants me to think hes sorry. I know when i was dating him, he was with her. Im a fool for him. Im still his fool.

(A\N ARIANA GRANDE JUST A LITTLE BIT OF YOUR HEART MOMMENT SORRY GUYS BUT I LOVE THAT SONG AND HARRY WROTE IT AND JUST YES ABDFHFJFBDUCJCN)

A little but of his heart is all i still want.

(A\N IM SORRY I WILL STOP BUT THAT SONG THOUGH GUYS)

I was just pretty much driving around. I didnt know where to go other than home which is NOT an option because my mother with kill me with her questions of me crying. Somehow i start taking the route to Ansel's... I always run to him now...

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Ansel and I are watching movies and eating ice cream on his couch in the living room. "Ansel, i really like you as a friend.. but just as a friend...'' I said cautiously.

I saw the pain flash in his brown eyes. It made me think of Nialls beautiful blue sparkling eyes thati could get lost in.

''Im not over Niall, and I dont know if i will ever be over him..''

''No, im sorry that i kissed you.. you were upset and i didnt know what to do. It was a in the momment kinf of thing..''

He said choking the words out..i knew the last part was a lie, the expression on his face was somewhat like Nialls when i told him i didnt love him back, that was a lie too...

Everytime i attempt to get over Niall, he ends up creeping into my mind. I still love Niall. And thats when i realized i said that out loud, when Ansel's face was pure shock and his eyes were wide.

 NIALL'S POV

When Dani left realized it was no use. She's happy. She dosent want me and i have to accept that. I decided to take a hot shower to sober up. They say that drunken words are sober thoughts. I belive thats true. I poured my heart out to Dani like i never have before. But i have to forget about her and move on, even though she means the world to me. The boys' flight was coming in at about 12:55.. shit i still need to clean the kitchen and get there rooms prepped. I swear if Ashton spills co co puffs all over my fucking kitchen again like last time his ass is grass and im gonna mow it. I wonder what hair color Michael sill be sporting this time. Luke is probably over 6"2 from the last time i saw him. And Calum, horny,horny Calum.. i heard his nudes leaked, "Horny for life" i see his motto as. Those lads' band has taken off and i couldnt be more proud of them. Theyre planning on going on tour during the summer and i may join them, becuase graduation and school will be over. After my 15 minute shower i got out and wrapped a white fluffy towl around my waist. It took me a second to realize it was Dani's towl that she brought for when she stayed over.. I decided to text Ava, i need to check up on the gang..

'' Hey.. how are you and everyone?''

'' Why do you care?? Fucking man whore..''

Yep, no doubt this is Ava.

'' I do care. I know i fucked up......''

'' We're great thanks for asking.''

'' Good.''

'' And yeah you did fuck up.. big time dude...''

and thats when i decided to not push my luck with her anymore. You see, Ava , Dani, and Violet are basiclly attached by the hip.. Violet and Ava are very protective over Dani. I got dressed and went downstairs into the kitchen and put on shoes and gloves so i didnt cut myself ln the clear sharp class that littered the floor in my kitchen. I got a broom and Pan.. time to clean.

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About a half hour later, i cleaned the kitchen and got the boys' rooms cleaned. I got a text from Luke saying that they got an earlier flight and that they're landng at 7:00.. it was 5:30. My best friends will be moving in with me in and hour and s half. My mum would be so proud of me. She lives ireland and i moved to London for school. I miss her lots. I saw her before summer started.. when Dani and  were together. My mum absolutly adores Dani. I dont hsve the heart to tell her we broke up. I sighed. Im a mess. I dont know why I did what i did to my everything, just so i could fit in. I remeber Dani always used to say,

"popularity is worthless. noone cares about who you were or what rank you were in school. Promise me always to stay with me?''

I broke my promise of Always. I would always say ''always'' to assure her that. And now here i am popular.

I broke my promise of always.

CALUM'S POV

"We're going to London bitches!''

Michael said a bit to loudly and mothers with children scolded him.

''Dont swear!''

Ash said to hkm being the mother he is at times.

''Luke, what time is it?''

''7:20, we should be landing soon!''

he squealed.

''Yes i cant wait to see Niall!!!!''

''i hope he has co co puffs!'' Ashton saidbwith excitment.'' I doubt tha-''

''welcom to London flight 162!''

the flight attendent said on the speaker.

We're finally in London.

HEY HEY HEY GIRLIES!! So sorry about not updating Paiges note was a lie, i gave her the chapter this October and never updated when i hounded her a million times, so i finally just updated it. Crappy i know but we havent updated since november.. Love you guys!!:)

              <Bailey:)xx>