indescribable feelings

lonely.

poem five:-

i'm stuck in a room surrounded by these walls,
walls that are filled with pain and sorrow,
i hug my knees with tears on my face,
crying my eyes out like there's no tomorrow,

why is the world full of hatred?
why is everything and everyone being hated?
people hated me for no good reason,
and i cried at night until my feelings faded,

i woke up the next day feeling empty,
no more feelings and no more tears,
i built a wall between me and other people,
hoping they won't see my fears,

i'm scared of letting people in,
i'm scared of trusting someone else,
because they always end up leaving,
with half of my heart along with them,

why does everybody leave?
why does everybody change?
why does everybody hurt you
and let you deal with all the pain?

alone is how i'd rather be,
if that is how they're treating me,
alone in my room i'd rather sleep,
with blankets that hug me and pillows that rub my tears..