indescribable feelings

why?

poem six:-

why?
i had to watch you drift away, and you never noticed,
the only difference is that, it wasn't the first time...

why?
i had to watch you laugh until you cried, with someone else,
it shattered my heart, but that's okay, it wasn't the first time i got my heart broken...

why?
i had to watch you walk away from me, and open up to someone else, i guess i wasn't good enough, but it doesn't matter,
it wasn't the first time someone did this to me...

why?
you lied to me, saying i was different and i was the one you loved the most,
but guess what?
it was all a lie, and it wasn't the first time...

why would you do this?
how could you do it?
walking away like nothing ever happened,
but that's okay, you never even noticed,
once upon a time, i thought you were the closest,
but then you turned into something else...

why am i always the second choice?
can't you hear my voice?
i called out for you, waiting for you to notice...

wasn't i loud enough?
i guess you were too busy to focus,
while you paid attention to someone else,
i turned into the coldest...
i guess i was too cold, i never even noticed,
i hurt myself and you were too busy to focus...