This is it \\part one\\

I choose my words carefully.

*JACINTAS POV*

"Why're you guys so.. down?" Kendall asks. It's been three days and we haven't done anything other than barely eat, sleep and listen to depressing songs on the vinyl. There's nothing to do anyways and it's not like we'd want to do anything without them here.

I look to her and almost kill her. She's applying lipstick in a tiny mirror. And she's using my tiny fucking mirror.

"We just lost our friend, you absolute fucking walnut." I yell at Kendall seriously.

In an instance she's pouncing on top of me and trying to claw my eyes out. In one swift motion I knee her in the stomach and restrict her hands behind her head and push her roughly to the ground. She lands with a loud thud. That must've hurt. Hah.

"Fuck you Jacinta," she says, lifting herself of the ground and shaking dust off of her clothing.

"Go fuck yourself, Kendall." I spit at her, my blood boiling and beating rapidly.

"Nah," Tiarn cuts in, "We should leave the, fucking Kendall part, to Harry."

My eyes go wide and a smile grows on my face. Holy fucking burn. I look to Harry and he looks hurt but then fury takes over his face.

"Fine." Harry almost yells, getting up and fast walking to Kendall, "Maybe I will fuck her, obviously you and I are over and you hate my fucking guts so what the hell, right?!"

He grabs Kendalls arm and storms off up stairs with her smirking and winking, leaving all of us shocked and Tiarn looks hurt an angry.

I flinch at someones hands on my shoulders and relax once I notice blue eyes and soft, pink lips. I smile weakly, knowing I fucked up and Lou knows too, so he takes my hands in his warm ones and places many small kisses on them softly and I can't help but grin like a fool and peck his lips, in return he smiles like a fool too.

Our moment is wrecked when Tiarn coughs, loudly and the others all look to her.

"Jacinta," she says sternly, "can I talk to you?"

Woah she never talks sternly. This is serious.

I reluctantly let go of Louis hands, missing the warmth and walk over to the kitchen that Tiarn disappeared into.

"You okay?" I ask her, concerned, "What happened was rough and I'm here for yo-"

"Are you seriously going to keep dating Louis?" She interrupts me and I look at her incredulously.

"Uh, why wouldn't I?" I ask, not really wanting to know the answer.

"He's best friends with Harry and if you haven't noticed he basically broke my fucking heart." She says, holding herself in fear that she might break.

"That was you and Harry, not Louis and I," I reply, hoping she changes her mind because I don't want to have to sneak around her to get to Louis, especially since I've never lied to her.

"I just need you more than he does right now. You're my best friend. Its against everything we promised, remember?" she says and I nod, looking down.

The promise, how could I ever forget? It was when we became best friends. We made a list, we made a promise to always stand by each other every if it's just the two of us standing. None of us have ever broken the promise.

"I-" Looking into Tiarns red, puffy eyes was a bad mistake. She looks sad and hurt and broken.

"Okay. I'll stop seeing him."