Lie to the Touch | Y.M

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Jimin sat there speechless, trying to gather his thoughts. Was this some sort of rejection, because that's what he felt it was. He concluded that Yoongi knew his feelings and that was why he was avoiding him. No way in hell could someone love a human like him. He didn't deserve Yoongi's attention.

Yoongi must have only felt bad for him when he was drunk, so that's why he helped him. All of Yoongi's actions so far, must have just been out of pure human decency. There were no feelings behind it, no emotion, they held no importance to the other boy. Was it all Jimin's fault for taking every action the wrong way? This all was his fault, his stupid heart's fault.

Jimin got up his head throbbing from yesterday's activities. He walked over to the kitchen counter that was cut into the wall giving a nice view of both rooms on either side of it. He walked up to the counter that Yoongi was in front of before.

He then scanned over the small kitchen, his eyes landing on the stove that held no pots or pans on top of it. The image of himself, waking up in the early morning to make breakfast for the two of them, and the idea of Yoongi waking up shirtless and back hugging him had crossed his mind.

A sad smile reached his face as he thought of all the affection Yoongi could have shown him, all the love he could showered Jimin in. Sighing, he moved over to the couch in the middle of the room which was positioned in front of a small TV, against the wall at the end of the mattress. He sat on the sofa finding it comfy, but he could tell it wasn't used much.

Maybe it would have changed if Yoongi ever loved him, they could spend the days cuddled up watching movies, playing games, or just enjoying the presence of each other. Jimin laid back on the couch, closing his eyes imagining all the scenarios with the two. He giggled at the idea of trying to get Yoongi out of his bed.

Then the sad truth hit him, he couldn't have any of that. Yoongi never saw him like that, like someone he would share his life with, or have a future with. So the only thought Jimin was left with was; what was the point of a future, if Yoongi wasn't going to be in it. He doesn't even know how he fell in love with an emotionless human.

It's just something about Yoongi that was rather intriguing to Jimin since day one; the day he moved in. Jimin was 22 at the time.

Yoongi at the time was plain rude to Jimin, but he didn't take it personally. Being the boy Jimin is, he decided to not judge the latter too quickly, who was he to do that in the first place?

So instead, Jimin took the opportunity to observe Yoongi. He needed to learn what type of person Yoongi was, even if Yoongi didn't display much. The man was bound to make a slip up every now then, and Jimin just so happened to wait for such moments.

As days went by Jimin noticed that the man was only lonely, he just needed someone to hold him. It was clear that no one but Jimin was to pick up on that. That's how Jimin thought maybe the two weren't so different. They both were yearning for the same thing in life: some affection.

However, the thought of finally owning up to his feelings made him feel vulnerable. He never knew how Yoongi felt at the time about him. He was just rushing all these feelings to find happiness for himself, he was being rather selfish. So Jimin decided to take a step back, trying to lead a life with as little as Yoongi, possible.

However, he always ended up finding himself driven to the man at the worst of times. Like the times Yoongi tried to end things. If no one else was going to care, Jimin was sure to take up the position, so that's how he started to fall in the trap of wanting Min Yoongi's love. It's been 3 years since he kept all those feelings to himself.

But today was the day when Jimin finally pulled himself together, to confess to him, and end it there. What did he have to lose? Nothing was holding him back. He knows he's not going to end up liking the outcome, but that's fine, that's just life. He really didn't need an answer, he knew the answer. Just some closure to feel a little light inside. 

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