Mr. Blue and me-Parallel Universe

Bonus Part(1)

Anthony's P.O.V

The day we took Alexa's ashes home,we invited all of her close friends, who were Kate, Stella and Emma from the university, Bill, Maria and Helen from work and of course her best friend Rafa, who was so devastated that couldn't even talk...

"I really can't believe Nancy did that...I mean...yeah she was a bad person,but this??" Stella said with tears in her eyes

"Neither can all of us..." Emma replied wiping her tears

"H-how could she do that??? Ok yeah,she-she went on a date with Nancy's husband and then got pregnant but she never bothered them! Instead, she raised the baby on her own...she sacrificed her dreams in order to be the best mom she could be,even though she never wanted kids...Nancy could at least acknowledge that...right??" Maria said

"U know what?? Whatever Alexa did,it wasn't a reason to get murdered...ok??? She was so ashamed of herself after that goddamn date! She was the most moral person I ever knew; she never forgave herself about that night...even when I was telling her that she didn't do anything wrong,since their marriage was a fiasco! And when Anthony came back to her, she was again very confused and didn't know what to do...she swore that if Anthony hadn't gotten a divorce by summer she would break up...she never wanted to hurt anyone and she didn't! Nancy never loved Anthony! So, there is no reasoning about killing her...But if it weren't for u,Anthony, she would be alive, so fuck u for taking my friend away from me!"Rafa yells at everyone and then gets up and leaves the house. George runs behind her and I turn my head down, knowing she is right

"I never meant for anything to happen...I loved Alexa and I will always love her! I never felt like that for anyone else, she was the love of my life...I curse myself every day for not taking the chance of being with her 26 years ago! Nothing mattered more than her; nor my job, nor my reputation...I should have never let Nancy manipulate me like that! But I was too stupid to see that, and when I saw her at the reunion,that's when it hit me... and then I found out about George...I saw it as a sign! So I looked for her, and the minute she let me back in her life, I swore to never put anything else above her, above our kid, above us...If I could, I would have divorced Nancy that day! But she was giving me hell...I never put up a fight on what she was asking, but she never wanted anything-she just wanted to delay the divorce...The day the divorce was finally done,I proposed to Alexa; I didn't want to wait not even a minute more! I even wanted to marry her the next day, but she wanted to give birth first...she wanted our little girl with us...she wanted everything to be perfect, and I didn't try to change her mind...her wishes were orders for me! And every obstacle that we found on our way to happiness, we were just kicking it away...it was us against the world, nothing seemed to tear us apart! And then we had a few months of happiness...when we made our relationship public and we didn't hear from Nancy, we thought we were finally free! and then it happened... one second...it only took one fucking second to lose it all! But I wanna thank u, Kate, for making me ask her on that date that night...it might not have turned out as we wanted,but it led to something special! Even if we weren't together on time...better late than ever..."I say making everyone cry. When I mentioned Kate's name,she looked at me. She hadn't said a word since I called her. She didn't even talk to me that day. When I told her about Alexa,she just asked "How?" with a flat voice, after a few seconds of silence and when I explained to her what had happened she just hang up

"Bullshit..."She finally says and everyone turned their heads to look at her

"Kate..."Stella tells her but it was no use

"U are the most disgusting person I have ever met, and trust me,I've met a lot of them! U're sitting here,telling us how much u loved her and how much she meant to u and how u wanted her to be happy...u're bullshitting all of us, when u should be dead instead of her! And I wish u were... "She says,leaving everyone with their mouths open

"What the hell did u just say?"Emma asks her, but she couldn't care less

"Rafa was right...if it wasn't for u,she'd be alive, and probably happy...but instead,she was miserable for 25 years...and when she had George she was giving u hell! She hated u for doing that to her, she hated u for creating something she never wanted but couldn't stand killing! It was your baby she was caring...she lived with it for 19 years, looking at that boy grow and look like u,gave her hell! Of course she loved him,but it was also hurtful...do u know how I know all that?? Because she told me the night after the reunion...when she drunk 2 bottles of wine all by herself...she couldn't say things like that sobber! And in other cases, I would have stopped her,because I know about her addiction problem, but I wanted her to say what she was feeling, because she was always keeping them inside of her...and she felt really bad about saying all these things...do u even know what u did to her??? Because I do...I was the one picking her pieces up one by one every time she was breaking down over u! I was the one watching her cry her eyes out and then passing out in my arms, exhausted from all the crying! What her ex did to her,was nothing in front of what u did! And then u came back...claiming her! Of course she would take u back! And I think u already know that and u used that in your advantage...have u ever thought about anyone else except from yourself? It was always what u wanted! U wanted your job and reputation? u got it...u wanted Alexa? u got her...it's all about u! So don't tell me how much u loved her, because for all I know,her blood is on your hands! And the only reason I'm not killing u with my own hands, is because it won't bring my friend back and because u're not worth the years I'll spend in jail away from my family!" She says and then gets up,heading to the door

"I'm so sorry for baby Alexa...she will have to live with someone who claims that loved her mother,but she was killed because of him...and make sure that when u die,because I'm sure u will soon,I'll tell her all about her! I know it's not right,but I don't want her to live with illusions..."She adds and then she leaves

"Anthony..."Stella tries to say,but I raise my hand, cutting her off

"Save it, Stella, she is right...don't try to cover for her...u should all feel like that! But what I said was true...I loved her, and I don't care if u believe it or not... I'm the one feeling it,so it's enough for me! But now,I'll ask u to leave the house...I want to be alone..."I say and get up, moving to the bedroom. A few secs later,I hear the door open and close again...