12 | Sierra
We went back to Manila few days ago, it was so exhausting but I will admit that I had a great time. Except for the Donny part, I did not want to include that.
I barely talk to him because I just couldn't, I can't stand seeing him with her. It hurts and it tortures me alive.
Although, how odd that the world is trying to get us in a same room like exactly right now. Donny Pangilinan behind the steering wheel while I'm here in the shotgun with my eyes bloodshot, a song from Bon Iver playing fadely through the car speakers at two in the morning.
But before this happened, let me take you back about six hours ago before the party was getting started.
Few days ago, when we were still at vacation, Troy reached out to announce that he'll throw the party of the century. And yes, we stayed in touch, he was one of the only "friends" I made at Brent so why not keep it. He got back from San Diego about a week ago since he was studying there. Troy being Troy, since everybody got back from whatever country they got in for college why not throw a party.
So here I am, together with a sea of both familiar and unfamiliar faces anxiously keeping my shit together. I was really anxious because remembering what happened to the first and last party I went to in highschool (which by the way, also a party by Troy) gone wrong and Donny had to save my ass, I do not want that to happen again.
"Holy shit! You finally came!" Troy excitedly passed through the dancing batchmates of mine while he manages to balance the red cup he is holding.
"Hi Troy," I grinned at him and we both gave each other a hug. "This is a nice party." I commented as I look around.
"Sierra, don't tell me this is only your second time partying."
"Guilty." I shrugged and he groans. Troy rested his broad arm around my shoulder and lead me away from the crowd.
There was completely different from what I remember. He did mention that they're getting it remodelled, but I did not expect it to be this sophisticated. Troy was walking me to the other room which I think is a more intimate living room, there I found Donny and his friends.
Of course, he is here. What do I expect.
His girl na friends greeted me politely, which I returned. "Take a seat here." Troy guided me to sit on the couch next to him, I'm glad that he's now smiling and looks healthy because I do remember him FaceTiming me when Anne and him broke up. But I wonder if he's only faking it...
"Everybody's here! Let's play spin the bottle!!!" Karina announced which made everybody groan and chuckle.
"What are we, Kars. Middle school?" Tino commented, she just rolled her eyes.
Stella then spoke, "Then, let's pretend that we're still in high school."
They were arguing about it, but later on decided to play. I was really quiet the whole time they're arguing not knowing what to do because Donny's eyes were on me.
The game started with people doing dares such as kissing each other, shouting shitty things, dares to tell the truth and whatnot. I was not really fascinated with it as for the fact that I'm still anxious because the bottle has not been pointed to me yet.
"SIERRA!!!"
Oh wow.
Everybody was hyped when they knew it was me. I shouldn't have played this.
"Truth or dare?" Claudia asked, I took a deep breath and muttered truth. I can be very honest sometimes.
I bit my bottom lip as Karina asked me the question, "Did you had feelings for Donny in Senior Year?"
Shit, ayan na.
We both know the answer, we've actually confessed each other's feelings. It's just that nobody really knew about it aside from us. I haven't seen Donny's reaction with the question and I kept it that way. Lying would be an option in this game but I also don't want to play mind tricks with myself anymore.
I nod, "Yes, I had feelings for him." Girl, until now ba 'yan?
They started muttering and teasing me and Donny, I kept things low-key kasi baka mahalata na bet ko pa din siya hanggang ngayon. The fact that he's taken, it will get messy.
The game continued and Donny was just quiet, I want to know what he's thinking but I don't know how to ask. Should I just like ask, Donny, are your thoughts about what I said? Or how are you and Sunny? Fucking dumb Sierra.
It was not my intention to bring back the past but I mean it was an old thing you know, he already moved on and maybe I should too.
They continued the game when I decided to leave the circle, I never realized that the party is still alive with people dancing and chatting, some were wasted already and some were not. I had my fourth shot already but it's my lucky day I guess 'cause I can still control myself, the backyard of Troy's house is astonishing. Landscapes and the vibes it in is just on point, they were few people out here just drinking and talking since I didn't really had many friends, why not loosen up a bit and mingle with people. I mean, what could go wrong?
I spotted a vacant seat at the lounge area and had a bottle of beer, the truth or dare game felt like forever when it was only half an hour ago, I guess I just didn't like it. The realization hits me that shit back there was not something I wanted, I usually just shrug it off but it seems like they enjoy shitty truth or dare game: typical teenager game.
For fuck's sake we're almost not teens anymore.
"Looks like you're drownig in your deepest thoughts," this guy who gives me a daddy vibes came out of nowhere sat beside me with his fancy drink, I just smiled awkwardly which he chuckles like he seems amused with me. "How come I've never seen you before? Are you friends with Troy? Oh! I'm Jacob, by the way."
He reaches his hand which I gladly accepted, "I'm Sierra," I nod. "Yes, we're high school friends and I just recently got back from the States that's probably why. Also, this type of stuff isn't really my scene so..."
The whole time I was talking, he was just smiling with admiration. "I respect that. Parties are overwhelming especially when you know a lot of people." We continued to chat, he'd ask me which uni and degree program I'm in and my life, I did the same to him and we kind of click. He gets flirty with me which I barely mind 'cause I'm under the tolerance of alcohol, I could feel the heat on my face because of the intoxicating drink.
Everything got blurry obviously, all I know is that I'm already kissing Jason or Jackson?... I can't even remember his name. In the middle of our make out session, someone grabbed Justin and punched him. My vision was semi back and I saw Donny. Holy shit, it's Donny.
His unreadable look felt like yung binuhusan ka ng malamig na tubig, ganun. Not knowing Jacob would fight back, he strangled Donny and started punching him. Donny tried to push him away but he was strong too, boys were trying to stop both parties and I immediately went up to Donny.
He was on the ground with blood on his face, the moment I knelt down I cupped his face and just looked at him. I traced the edges of evidence that he got in a fight, not knowing what to do next, I embraced him. Surprisingly, he wrapped his arm arouns my frame and whispered:
"Why did you have to hurt me like that?"
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hi! it's been more than a year since i updated this book, now i've written half of it almost a year ago it's just that i lost the interest of writing which kinda sucks but it happens anyway.. hopefully i can go back into writing aus and such,, also i wrote a teen fic ig!! It's called "luca & zion" :))
thank you for those who have been really patient with me heheh <3 keep healthy and safe everyone!
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