i just wanna tell you

Foundations

Im not okay. Thats a hard thing to admit. It hard thing to truly say "Im not okay. I need help." I honestly need to find myself. Im not writting this to get help. Im not writing this for attention. Im writing this to express whats going on through my head 25/8.

I wish i was enough
but i am enough
I wish i was better person
but you are a good person
i wish i was the person he wants me to be
you cant be what everyone wants you to be
I wish i can understand me
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i hope i can find myself
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i hope i can get over my past
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i hope my mental state gets better
i promised that it will get better and i have
Fuck me
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I hate  myself
but you love everyone else
I hate everyone and everything
people still care for you
im just a enemy for everyone
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i dont accept myself
but people care for you
I just want you to be happy
. . .
L L L L L L L L L L L your not good enough youll never be good enough  your life is meaningless nothing matters everything is just a cycle of staying in pain and working your ass off to make people happy. I sacarfice my happiness for everyone else

i dont deserve happiness.

i just want you to be happy i want you to have the happiness you dont get. The happiness that you deserve.