Living In The Past (Gabriel)

I'm Still Not Okay

Hands were tugging, yanking, pulling the omega underwater and he was starting to be unable to breathe. He tried to claw his way back to the surface, but all that did was make them drag him harder. The water turned red around him and he smelled the iron taste of blood.

A blue onesie passed over his head and he heard a baby crying. He screamed, but only red bubbles came out. Then, the water started to drain.

He looked around when the water drained, stark white walls becoming more visible. He was in a hospital room. He felt intense pain in his lower regions.

Someone was standing in the corner of the room that Gabriel could have sworn wasn't there before. They were carrying a baby in their arms. The one that was crying. It was quiet, now, rocked to sleep by the person who owned the arms they were in. "You did it... my beautiful omega..." The person said.

Gabriel's eyes widened as he recognized Sam's voice. He went to get up but realised he was restrained. He gasped and tugged. Sam looked up and smirked. "Thank you... We're really grateful."

We're? Gabriel tugged harder until he saw Ruby enter the room and his struggles stopped. But, his eyes only got wider in horror when he saw Ruby take the baby and kiss her head.

Sam slowly came over and stroked Gabriel's hair. "Thank you..."

Gabriel felt something plunge into his chest and he screamed.

The room faded away as he screamed, but he felt only ghost pain. The restraints turned to dust and he stopped screaming after the pain faded with the room. Blood was dripping down his chest, he could feel it. But, there was no pain.

The room was filled with mirrors. He went to one and he could see his body, but he couldn't see his face. Where his face was supposed to be, there was only obscured vision.

But, then he saw the boss behind him. He whipped around, but there was no one there, only a mirror. He finally noticed he was in a hospital gown, backing up into the mirror behind him.

He knocked it over and shattered it, falling with it. And falling through the ground.

Falling, falling, falling. Until, he hit padding. Everything was padded and he couldn't move his arms.

"Clinically insane," he heard. The voice came from nowhere. "Diagnosed as broken. Nobody wanted him, so he's here."

Gabriel tried to scream, but no sound came out. Then, he heard it, again. A baby crying. The room filled with water and once again, he was being tugged down by the hands. But, this time, they had faces.

Omegas he recognized that were killed in front of him. Or he was forced to partner with. Or were tortured with him. He didn't fight it, this time. Instead, he let himself be pulled down. "My wonderful pet..."

It all went black.

Gabriel had stopped talking since he had received the text. Cas and Dean couldn't get a word out of him. Or any reaction at all for that matter. All they received was a blank stare, before Gabriel went back up to his room.

Gabriel knew it was bad to do this. To hide inside his head. His head usually was so dangerous, but he could hide from the memories this way, too.

Ellen hadn't okayed the testimony, yet. But, she had decided he should try and talk to the boss. He would be completely safe, she said. There would be thick bulletproof glass separating them. He couldn't lay a hand on him.

He'd still manage to find a way to get to Gabriel.

Gabriel threw up everytime he thought about it. He was going to have to see him. He was going to have to see him. He was going to have to see him. He was going to have to see him. He was going to have to see him. He was going to have to see him. He was going to have to see him. He was going to have to see him. He was going to have to see him. He was going to have to see him. He was going to have to see him. He was going to have to see him. He was going to have to see him. He was going to have to see him. He was going to have to see him. He was going to have to see him. He was going to have to see him.