Living In The Past (Gabriel)

It Happens

He did his best to remain in reality after that, reassured that people were there for him. It was currently the day before he had to see... Him and he was doing his best to just not think about it.

Cas and Dean had told Gabriel that Sam and Ruby wanted to have dinner with them. "Why can't I stay home?" He mumbled.

"Because we... we just don't want you home alone. Not if you don't have to be, okay?" Cas murmured in reply and gently hugged Gabriel. "We'll have to talk about the baby. You know that. But, we'll try to keep away from any triggering topics. Okay?"

Gabriel nodded a bit and looked down. "Okay..." He really didn't want to have to go. He just wanted to stay home and curl up watching more rom coms and eating cake and pizza.

But, Cas and Dean were worried about leaving Gabriel alone so he decided he wouldn't put too much of a fight up so they wouldn't have to worry so much.

"Thank you, Gabriel. I love you so much, you know that?" Cas smiled and kissed Gabriel's hair. He helped Gabriel find a hoodie and put it on before finding his shoes for him and handing them to him.

Gabriel quietly thanked his brother before putting the shoes on, "I think I need new shoes..." He mumbled. "These are getting holes."

"We'll take you out for new shoes tomorrow, okay?" Cas kissed his hair again before heading to check if Dean was ready.

Dean came back with Cas a few moments later and they headed out to the car with Gabriel. Gabriel got in the back and looked out the window, stuffing his hands in the pocket of his hoodie. Cas had put his scent all over the hoodie for Gabriel, so he felt safe at work. He snuggled into it, relaxing.

Gabriel's nose was messed up. He had trouble with scenting, unless the smell was right there. He could still smell who were omegas, betas, and alphas. But beyond that was nearly impossible. But, he didn't mind. He never got headaches.

His brother smelled like rain and ink, though. He always had. Dean smelled like leather and whiskey. And Sam... Sam smelled like heaven. Though, Gabriel always had trouble figuring out what he smelled like. Since he rarely got close enough to smell him.

Apparently, when he was little, Gabriel smelled like warm vanilla. Then that developed into fresh baked sugar cookies when he was a teenager. His family always joked that he had developed by being baked into a little cookie. Or that he smelled like that because he loved sweets. Now, he was told he smelled like laundry detergent. Which made him realise he didn't have a smell anymore. His brother said he had trouble figuring out Gabriel's emotions when he scented him. Said he couldn't smell past the fear and depression.

Though, when Gabriel got really happy, Cas said he could smell a hint of fresh cotton candy in the air.

Gabriel smiled a bit as he thought about it. Sometimes, he felt like crap because he didn't have a scent. But, leave it to Cas to manage to make him feel better.

"Hey, you okay? You're quiet?" Dean was turned around, looking at Gabriel. Since he wasn't driving.

"Yeah, I'm okay... Just remembering something. Cassie, remember how dad used to say I smelled like sugar cookies because of all the sweets I ate?" Gabriel smiled a bit more.

"Of course I remember that. You were a sweet little kid. And you smelled sweet, too. I think Dad called you vanilla drop when you still smelled like vanilla. Everytime he put you somewhere, he'd say "now just a drop of vanilla goes in". And you'd giggle each time... " Cas smiled softly as he remembered.

Gabriel felt just that much better at the memory. "I miss that time." He mumbled.

"Me too, Gabe." Cas sighed and looked in the rear view mirror at Gabriel.