The Other Woman

Seven|Zayd

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Cleanse your heart of bad emotions, thoughts and free yourself from the past. Before you know it, the bad memories will consume you and you'll be left with nothing but a shell of a man.
~blac_33~

It's her...after all these years I cannot believe that I have such pitiful luck. It took everything in me to forget her. Countless sleepless nights on my prayer mat, asking Allah to forgive me, asking him to cure my heartache.

People say that heartbreaks suck but they never really explain how it truly feels. No amount of physical pain could ever compare to its emotional distress. What is heartbreak anyway?

Is it that feeling of absolute unawareness to everyone around you, staring at the stars at night and thinking of a certain someone whose beauty encompasses that of the glimmering lights in the sky and cursing yourself for thinking about her for the millionth time that night.

The dread you feel when nighttime comes because you're aware that the moment those eyes close only one image stares at you in the face causing you to cower and turn to the only person who can help which is your Lord. That poker face you put on for everyone in your family because no one needs to know that Zayd Abdullah is hurting inside like a big baby.

I used to ask myself why it was called heartbreak when nothing gets broken. Now I know that clearly, heartache breaks more than the heart...your soul, trust, inner peace and all emotions held for the person. In fact, it just breaks all of you.

It took time for me to mend my broken heart...the pieces were still scattered yes, but at least the shards had stopped poking at my soul. Yet here I am again, suddenly everything I have kept within which made me the uncaring man I am today has come rushing back.

3 years ago

I was finally going to muster up the courage to tell her how I felt. I wish I could go straight to her parents but I wasn't sure. I had to ask...I had to ask her if it would be OK to visit her parents. Just that one line and she would get it. She would get what I was hinting at. We wouldn't have to talk after that, once she gives her consent I will go straight to her Father and ask for her hand in marriage. She was the one and I could feel it in my bones.

I cleaned my sweaty hands with my handkerchief. I have never been this nervous before in my life.

I walked up to her at the library her head was on the table and I couldn't see her face. She was probably tired, I should leave her...but there is no turning back now. "Hey..." I said, my voice a bit scratchy. Her friend whispered something in her ear and I heard her sigh.

"Tell him to leave..." She said coldly. A wave of shock ran through me.

"He-hey...I just wanna talk to you that's all" At this point, my anxiety was on another level. Suddenly all eyes were on us. I didn't think that she would be this-

"I said leave me alone OK! I don't ever wanna talk to you! I hate you so much! Leave!" Without sparing me a glance she got up and left me with a cold heart. Everyone was watching me, suddenly they all began laughing all at once but I didn't care. This couldn't be it...there had to be another explanation for her being this angry, mean and rude and I knew just the person to talk to.

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"Hey, Assalamu Alaikum. How are you" I said rubbing the back of my head.

"I'm good!" She said a little too eagerly.

"Umm...I wanted to talk about your friend. You're Daniya right?" Her smile fell instantly.

She was wearing a pair of distressed jeans and a pink top with her shoulder-length auburn hair flowing behind her in a ponytail.

"Oh...so you want to talk about Mina?"

"Yeah. Is-is she alright? I-I mean what she did recently that's not like her at all" I said a bit flustered.

"Well, that's Mina alright. You don't know her but that goody little two shoe personality of hers is just an act. Don't worry everyone falls for it. I've been friends with her for a long time so trust me when I tell you. She knew what you were about to ask her back there"

"Then...why did she say no?" I questioned.

"You might be Mr. Popular and smart but Mina only dates wealthy boys and dumps them when she's done. Ask Allen, he knows all about it. She's not the person you think she is"

"Right" that's all I could say before turning on my heels to leave. Right.

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I could not think straight, my mind was on overdrive. All I could think of was how on earth I had gotten myself into this mess in the first place.

I stepped on the gas and continued driving. I was driving so fast that at this point, how the police haven't stopped me yet is beyond me. All the windows were down making strong gushes of air to hit my face.

This was what I needed; air. But it wasn't enough...I needed to talk to someone who understands, someone who I trust my life life with, someone who I love more than anything in this world...the only person who listens to every word I say and actually has answers to my problems.

It was dark but I was not sure whether or not it was open. Even though this was definitely not my part of town, I was sure that no one would object to me being here even if it was this late; the mosque is a house of God anyway and everyone is welcome. I removed my shoes carefully and opened the huge doors.

All the anger and rage I felt bottled up inside of me came rushing back. They say there is a thin line between love and hate and they are very right. That intense love I felt for Mina once has been multiplied by ten folds of anger.

When I prayed, I poured out my soul to my Rabb and let go of everything I was feeling through my tears. I felt normal again, or as normal as I was before going to her house.

After praying, I drove to the woods. To get some fresh air and relax.

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I heard a car stop behind me and didn't bother to turn around because I immediately knew who it was. After going MIA on her so much she has gotten good at finding me me.

"I just wanna be left alone Cass.."

"We need to talk...urgently"

"What is it now?"

"I'm pregnant"

I feel really sorry for Zayd really 😭😭. One can only go through so much. Problem after problem?! It's just too much.

Ya Allah help us all. 🙏