For Kyanna_Malek
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"Ruby won't get out of his room again" Jamel said
"Again what it's like the 3 day in a row?"
"I would go and check on him but me and Monse have to go....Work" Cesar looked at him and rolled his eyes
"Fine I'll go check on him"
"Ruby..Hey man you alright"
"How do I think I feel"
"..I'm sorry man I should have killed him when I had the chance"
"No don't if you killed him the same thing would have probably happened sooner or later" Ruby said
"Now if you don't mind I'm going back to sleep" He turned around
"Nope your getting up getting to much sleep is bad for you"
"Cesar really I'm not in the mood"
"I can ask Oscar to drive us any where you want"
"Fine. Then let's go to the park"
"Really out of all you could have picked where going there"
"And no need to ask Oscar we can walk"
"I see what your doing. Fine let's walk there"
"I was just joking Cesar my family isn't here we can just chill here" Cesar nodded
"Ok fine just get out of the bed and this room"
Cesar's POV
"There look I'm out of my room"
"Great thanks"
"You know I was going to marry Olivia make her fall in love with me" Ruby smiled and broke down
"hey it's fine Ruby don't do this to yourself I'll find a way to make it up to you"
"I'm sorry Cesar..I just haven't been myself since I got shot"
"I know Ruby but I know you'll get better "I miss her Cesar i miss her so much " I sighed and pulled Ruby a little closer
"Ok look at me Calm down alright breath"
"Thanks..."
"You love her don't you?"
"was it that obvious?" Ruby said wiping his tears and smiled
"yes you tried to name an app after her" he chuckled and looked over at me
"You know maybe we should go for a walk I need some sun"
"Thanks the spirit man. Let's go"
"So I was thinking and after God give me a second chance to live and you better not tell anyone I'm trusting you to keep this secret" Ruby said as he continued walking
"You know what nevermind"
"No know you have to say man" Ruby shrugged
"Nah it's nothing important" I pushed him slightly
"You can't just do that"
"I just did so"
"Fine man whatever" I smiled
"Ok.. Have you ever thought about being with another guy" I looked at Ruby and shook my head
"Are you joking or is that what you wanted to tell me?"
"I'm joking"
"I don't want to discuss my sexuality with you"
"it's an uncomfortable question" I said and stopped
"Are you gay or something because that's totally fine Ruby"
"No...yes...I don't know it's just I loved I mean I love Olivia but sometimes I look at other guys the way I looked at Olivia" He said and turned to look at me
"This isn't weird right boys my age think about this all the time right?"
"I mean I've thought about it but at our age I think experimenting is normal" I said as I continue walking
"Right so this is just a phase "
"You never know Ruby"
"Damn ok I'm fine so what if I am gay...what if I am gay?!"
"Ruby calm down let's just go back to your house and we can talk about this over there"
"Damn I might really be gay"
"So Ruby come on your just thinking to much"
"I'm fine if I am but it makes since now"
"What makes since"
"that i always thought you were cute and stuff"
"Wait so you had a crush on me?" I smiled
"No I didn't...I..I better go I'll see you tomorrow!" Ruby said walking away
"Wait Ruby come back! We're not done talking!"
