Heaven in this Hell

Nine

She only wanted to know my name, I couln't help so I smiled. She is cute, a little shy, a little playful. I like her. She is different, just like me. She was shaking then, I picked a blancket and I covered her. I stayed by her side. I can't stop thinking what happened a few hours ago. I am totally out of my mind. I am worried about her. She is whatching Tv and sometimes she smiles and gives a small laughs, I look at her and I can't hold my smile.  I need to know her better :

- "Kyra?"

-" Yes, Allie?" -

- "Do you like... ah...carrots?" - What the fuck is wrong with me, carrots?  Am I stupid?

- "Carrots?" -  She is staring at me with a serious face. I made shit. Damn it. Come on, Kyra, talk to me. Great! I was worried and now she is laughing at me.

- "What? Why are you laughing at me?" - I am dead serious.

- " Oh my god, sorry. Carrots?" - She is still laughing, amazing. 

- "Kyra, I was serious."

- "I know that's why it was so funny."

- "Really?"

- "Yes... I like coffee." - She likes coffee too!

- " Do you like coffee? "

- "No. I am addicted to coffee!"

- "Wonderful! I had one idea!" 

- "Tell me..." 

-"Starbucks!"

-" Allie... no."

- "Oh, sorry. I am so sorry Kyra! But, I have another idea! Let's go the beach and we take coffee!"

- "Good idea!" - It is just amazing how my life turned like this. I am not alone anymore. We are going to the beach with some coffee. I never took anyone to that beach, but I want to show her my little space, where I have the deepest thoughts, where I make the most important decisions. She is important to me. Now she is part of me, part of my world. 

We are coming, we already can see part of the landspace. We start to see some of the sea and the mountains with a perfect sunset.  There's almost no one, I don't know how, really, because this is heaven in this hell that the world is. It's winter but here, it's like a landscape of the spring. It's cold here, for sure, but we have the sun, I have no words to describe this because it really looks like heaven or paradise. Kyra stopped and closed her eyes, took a deep breath and I smiled. I can see myself in her. She did something I do everytime I am here. She took off her sneakers and buried her feet in the sand. Just like I said, she is just like me. 

- "Here we go. It's here. What do you think?" -  I asked.

- "It's amazing. How I never knew this place? It looks like heaven." - She was with a little smile, was with a peaceful face. So do I. She sat in the sand and hold her own legs and rested her head on my shoulders. I took off the hot coffees from my bag and gave one to her. It was quiet, just me and her in heaven. Hearing the waves, the birds, seeing the sunset. Perfect!

Nothing was said, nothing. Was getting darker and we fell asleep in the sand when suddenly started to rain, we got up very quickly and we started to run towards my home. It was already night when we got home. I opened the door quickly and we laughed a little, it was fun! We are all soaked and we need a bath. Kyra was first and I was after. She appeared with only a T-shirt and penties. I was dazzled. She sat by my side and gave me a big kiss. We started to hear someone knocking at my door but I needed to pee so I asked to open the door and see who was. Everything was quiet, she oppened the door and then I just heard a loud bang, I started to run to see what happen when I found Kyra lying on the floor, she was shot, oh my god, she is losing so much blood.

-" Kyra, Kyra, Who did this? Kyra! Handle a little, don't close your eyes! I am calling an ambulance! "

- "Allie... Thank... you...for everything. Don't forget me."  - I looked at her crying and she lost consciousness. No, I can't lose her. I can't ... Kyra... no! Kyra... Don't do this to me! 

-  "Hello? Hello? My friend was shot! Come quickly please! Quickly!"

-  "Please, tell me your adress."  - I couldn't talk anymore, I put the phone at the floor and hold her and tried to wake her up. This is not happening to me! Kyra, stay with me Kyra! Kyra don't leave me Kyra. The ambulance is already here, they are taking her to the hospital. I have to go with her! 

Now, I am at the hospital waiting to hear something about her. It is the second time I am here but this time is so much worse, she can die, I can't lose her! I can't! Here comes the doctor. No... This is not happening to me. I fell on my knees and started to cry, I  was despairing. I lost her. She is... dead. No! Kyra! Come back Kyra! I started to scream, calling her to come back. She is not dead! She is not! She is alive! It's a lie... She is alive. She is alive. She can't be dead. No! I lost her forever. That is not possible. It can't be. I started to punch the floor and started to scream louder. No! Kyra...No...